Crush- To Dust Or Eternity

A sweet forbidden crush I have I confess I do From being faithful to a knave Yet I don't blame you. I'm a victim of emotions Swirling like a bottle in the ocean's motions. I close my eyes n see our moments. So perfect they deserve no comments. Wish I could live them again But then doubt feasts on my brain. How does she feel about me? Are we sailing the same sea? Will this emotion pass? How long will this last? I feel so warm inside When I have you by my side. I want to wash my hands But can not find the right water Should I step in this quicksand? Or just jump it over? I want to enter this labyrinth Poisonous yet gorgeous like Hyacinth She feels right for marriage. And be my children's carriage. So... I will wait with the hopes that fate shows me the right path to take Till that day I ask the Almighty. If I should "crush" to dust or eternity!