Pondering Continued

"Still no good, try harder and harder.".. Prove this, prove that... Everything in life- Big task... I can do anything... And I can, no satisfaction, nothing was good enough... "You're wasting your time, you're wasting your life... You can be more, straighten up... Use your mind.".. I did... I did and it still, ain't good enough... Task, test, test, test... More things to prove... No-one happy... I wasn't good enough, do better, you're not stupid... "Use your talents, stop wasting them... Why are you like this??". And I wonder, why do you push me??. Why can't you accept me??. I've tried, but I focused on the wrong... "You could do better... No, yes, no, yes, better", they say... "You can do it, you just ain't trying.".. You're stupid if you can't do this or that... Why do you do this to hurt us??. Why can't you be like so and so??". But so and so isn't no better... Why be competitive??. Why do I know things that are beyond??. Why was I stuck in a situation, that I am someone??. When I feel like, I'm no-one... Why was I pressured and pressured??. Why only me??. And why was I always to blame??. And why did so many people, fall for me??. But turn their backs on me... What did I do??. Nothing... Why do people treat me like I'm an artifact, like I'm a a God??. Why??. Am I me??. I am EVERYONE!!! Written: OCJ or GCI in 1997