You Lied Under Your Breath

When you said you didn’t love me anymore I knew it wasn’t you speaking you were coerced everyone was intervening like they had done long before its frozen in my mind I still hear everyone on the phone Pressuring you to say goodbye to me you were stolen from me and that’s how I will always view it You were made to be afraid of what happened years ago They wanted you to remember the first time around They didn’t want you to have a second chance with me They made you think it would happen all over again they put fear into your heart and confusion into your mind one day your wanting to be back in touch with me Especially after I reached out and confessed the truth you even asked about the ring I once gave to ypu and the next day your looking to run and hide Because everyone again is trying to tell you what to do back in 95 your new boyfriend threatened to leave simply because you were suddenly talking me he was showing his true colors too by trying to control you and your family gave you stress and forced you to say goodbye to me I lost you to someone that didn’t even smile a spineless prick who knows maybe you really did want a daddy figure someone who was going to tell you what to do to manipulate and control you to dictate what you should do or maybe it is just as well that you didn’t choose me though you tossed the engagement ring back into my memory If you didn’t love me then why was the ring at the top of your mind Was there a chance that ring would've changed everything It was supposed to bring me dedication It was suppose to represent a heart felt love I remember the day I gave it to you I remember the expression on your face I remember your beaming smile I remember how you were grinning from ear to ear I remember the kisses you gave to me that ring was like magic the symbol of our love it meant you were for me and I was for you our hearts danced thinking of the possibilities But that ring created an evil bliss For a whole year you wore it true A glittering diamond and begets too Wiggling your fingers and dedicating your love I didn't lie when I said I loved you But I lost my sense of identity I wanted marriage badly but I just wasn’t ready I let everything slip away From the salt of my tears and the wailing of my soul you were supposed to heal my heart you were an angel that gave me comfort you were my one true love But I went into a fog and couldn’t find my way home