What I Wrote On My Gravestone 10-18-22

I hardly cry in funerals... Because I know that one day, all will be healed and risen from the dead I hardly dance in balls... Because I know that someday, my love will dance my dreams away instead I doubt I'll ever fly away With these withered wings My route is brightened by the day, Awaiting what happiness brings It appears that I'm barely surviving here My mind disappears without any fear I'm not alone and I promise you won't be as well Cheerfulness and inner pride flourishes here, I can tell Solitary shame sways my soul If only I can make what's ugly beautiful I'm obliged to say the least You are like a fulfilling, filling Feast Excuse my sins, pardon my iniquities I'm like dolphins without fins in the seas Ecstasy is far from my island of hopes I'm also far from these dangling ropes Frolicking in fields of golden dandelions Fearful for what lies ahead once more Fearless for what emotions I'll overcome and what creatures I'll come across -- a few dandy lions Temptation to run away is what's in store I made up my mind -- I desire passionately Of being left behind Vibrantly adoring me... Vivacious roses delight my heart I'm not sorry I got rid of the weeds That have torn us apart from the start Liberty's lovely lamentation exceeds What I wrote on my gravestone Is to be left alone in the unknown What I wrote on my gravestone I'm like a broken bone on my own Taunts me and haunts me till this day Nightfall dooms my soul all the way I have been led astray, but I'll be okay As long as I find my home amongst the hay