Wading Thru February

I sometimes feel like I want to die. Some days I wonder why I even try. So many times I feel so alone. Can't seem to even figure out when I'm using a tone. Torn between needing to cry and needing to scream... What happened to what once felt like the kinda love that some only dream? I hear you sing and watch you breathe while you sleep... We used to connect at levels so deep. Yes, we have always had subjects in which we disagree.. But it still felt like the world was just for you and me. My heart now seems so often to be aching.. Crying in the shower until I'm shaking... I keep Trying to be everything you could possibly want... But Now the words you say and the love you give to someone else only seem to constantly taunt.... with AP and F on my mind