TRYING TO LIVE

Only if I were a special person, I'll have love that would heal my heart I'm just a loner walking through life, and I'm falling apart Settling down looking at everybody live I'm all by myself trying to get healed Mental is going astray, it's leaving me crazy Being alone with no one to talk to while my body is aching You want to cry, but the physical mind makes the tears blocked You just keep thinking to yourself, when will this stop Medication is fluctuating with your inner thoughts Suicide is not the answer, but it's riding the clock I'm trying not to give up, but life is getting so hard Pain is eating me up from the outside and it being absorbed Can someone let me know if this is the way Because the life I live, I'm just trying to make it another day