Too Weak

TO WEAK Im sorry that I am to weak to just be "friends" The reason quite simple didnt want it to END YOU were a drug that ran through EVERY vein Now sitting here alone loathing the PAIN Losing u in my life wont lie it truly STINGS Did you know all the pleasure your love brings? , surprised at my own reaction when u told me goodbye can't tell you how many times I've SAT here and cried I sit in isolation and it deeply hurts cant stop thinking about YOU which makes it all worse WAS I BLIND? maybe the ONLY one who didnt see Impossible because I WAS THERE I felt the electricity I KNOW YOU felt it too the chemistry between u & I STILL unsure what I did for you to tell me goodbye UNAWARE that we had a problem thought everything was ALRIGHT YOU were my FIRST thought in the morning My last thought each night Our attraction & desire unconfined Every day thoughts of you burn in my mind We had "something" hard to define Still VERY special uniquely YOURS & MINE Some time has passed thats true Feelings not subsided STILL MISSING U MY ego & confidence slightly tattered WANTED to be the Women who remotley MATTERED WISH to go back to the way things used to be when u got butterflies when U thought of ME To the place of newfound friends A thrill with EVERY message youd send Perhaps you felt was the ONLY choice GOD I long for our chats & the sound of your voice YOU meant so much to me even MORE than I knew Knowing me BETTER than those closest to me do I think thats WHY it hurts so much I invited YOU in & opened MYSELF UP KNEW what was blossoming long ago Now Im the PATHETIC loser who cant let u go I heard it early on Cupids arrow calling Easier to ignore than admit I was FALLING Easy for you maybe u can give me a CLUE HOW do I go forward and get OVER you? Crushed like bricks when you withdrew Waiting for a sign or some kind of break through MY live and friend have not 1 regret I cherish EVERY moment we shared NEVER to forget NO words need be spoken how YOU FEEL I already KNOW Let's chalk it up to learning and a reason to grow I am TRYING my best to do whats right for ME Pick up whats left if my wavering dignity & HOPING someday YOU will SMILE when u stop & think of ME