The Pendulum of My Consciousness

'Helpless' is an adjective I never thought my hand would write to describe the despair that's wound its way deep inside my heart. Honestly, I'm only the catalyst of my own life, the taproot that strengthens my mindset, my cornerstone, my anchor, my backbone when I wobble in the wind over matters that I deem too serious to contemplate. Lately, my thoughts swing back and forth, from heights and depths, highs and lows. My conscience cannot abide the seesaw on which it rides up and down. It wants to get off but can't find the right stride to control where my troubled mind goes. What fulcrum will serve as a bulwark for me? Today I turn away from the bitterness and strife, but tomorrow my mind will again pivot upon life. I am a pendulum, swinging in the air, but I have no counterweights to spare. I try to bury my worries, but I still hear them chime. There's no place to hide from a revolution. Persecution of the innocent is a wretched crime. What can I do to ease such chaos and lament? I pray for Divine intervention with the intention that God's mercy will help humankind endure their banes and lessen their pains. But is it His plan to save man in this way? I've become unsure that He will intervene. With so much folly and corruption in the world I wonder... should I keep my sails unfurled and take flight so that I might never see horrors in the night and the bitter blight, the tragedy being inflicted upon each other. Or should I stay to fight with my brothers? Given my druthers, there'd be no choice to make if greed in fiendish ones, they would forsake. What hub could serve as the center point, a crux where minds meet to ease the tension, and erase the apprehension in our society? If there is an answer it has not come to the fore. Must that mean war is the only solution? Is there no resolution, something awesomely sublime, to be a lever of sanity and give proper perspective to a world standing on the edge of fanatical unrest? I've no answer that would end the volatile upheaval or staunch the flow of blood driven by an evil ego. To negate the vile ones who are assailing humanity, will take a mind shrewder than mine has to reveal. March 8, 2022 Consciousness Fulcrum Contest Sponsored by Unseeking Seeker