The Odium of Sodium

Like a Phoenix, I rise up from the ashes of my past Your beautiful tune mended the Earth with exquisite mirth Like a runner, I'm running forward to the finish line oh so fast You're a butterfly, wrapped in her cocoon...you're more than what you think you're worth I'll wait my turn to see what's on the other side I'll wait my turn to find a secluded cave to hide Solitude is echoing my name in the mountains of majestic wonders The attitude of gratitude, reject me not during tribulation and hardship, for my mind endlessly ponders What it's like after death when all the dead will rise I heard life's a journey that has so much to offer according to the wise If we learned to forgive the past, The future will show us the path of painless happiness Burn away our dismay, so we won't be downcast Still scattered on the floor like shards of shame...that leaves me with little to no success Forgive the past and remember that you're not a waste of space Forgive the future and let your regrets flee from your presence Forgive the present and embrace the passion of your heart that's overflowing with grace Forgive the past, present and future, then you can seek repentance I heard a tap at my window... I expected your face to appear when I opened it ajar Instead, the wind of sorrow... Decided to blow to and fro and I've been chilled to the bone so far Don't turn the cold shoulder... The gloomy room of doom becomes colder No matter what, I will love you even when you grow older I will keep you like a memory folder in my brain...I'll think more clearly and bolder Don't make me wait my turn to receive rationality Don't make me wait my turn to grieve my long lost sanity Get out of the way, stay away from the hideous, Yet beautiful lies in my heart...we're not on the same bumpy, rowdy bus I haven't heard from you Good morning to mourning...don't you see I'm blue? Whatever I've done that meant you so much harm... I'm sorry, but I tried and tried with the shedding of tears and a restless arm Without anyone to lean on Might as well be...gone... Hello from the inside You subside from my side You light the way You're the dawn and the gray of today You're the imperfect storm inside and out You know what I'm talking about...don't make me childishly pout Ah...ah...ah... My guilty passion Beats me with affection Bombs going off like crazy I'm feeling hazy...my beautiful daisy...and feeling numb lazy Opposites attract To be exact Please don't leave me this soon You're my mesmerizing maroon moon You're bowing down to the devil of the dark I'm singing sweetly like a lightingale or a lark I find it hard to trust you with my heart I find it easy to bust out in a dance from the start Dart out of my racing heart before it breaks apart You, my night sky of vibrant, whirling stars, are my work of art I won't let you break me...break me... Don't let me break me...to the highest degree Consumed by the shadows of our lies Bruised by the aftershocks of our g'byes I thought you would be accepting... Respecting me no matter what I've done I thought I found the one, but it was deceiving You invaded my personal space, you disgrace that is the dim sun Believe me when I say this in a state so hopeless - You are my vexing abstract abyss Determined to stand up for the rights of others, not only my own I roll the dice and find myself a paradise when I sacrifice myself, a good blood to the bone Undo the silent wars in your mind, Hypnotized by your symphony of sympathy so kind I walk the route of doubt and taste the odium of sodium You gave me a SPR so enlivening, so sudden...inticingly inviting, so exciting...making me no longer numb...drunk off your love above rum Your words, like gum, stick in my brain Making my train of thought get off track...so, sincerely, awfully...insane and such a pain So, Lord of Accord, send me Your healing rain You struck a chord in me, but I'm stuck in this pit of in vain...in vain... Losing my darling sugar cane - you, alone, to be exact We are on the same darksome lane...and that's the fun fact of it all...backtracked A route id rather not step foot in... Your hope and joy, sadly, but truthfully...paper thin...come again? I arise from the ashes and the piles of dead dread Your melody buried in the chorus of a thousand men...silence sleeping in your bed...misled by lustful appearance instead The pages of my story left unread... Not even written out yet...devoured like scrumptious bread Nevermind what you say I'm all ears for you another day Let me hear my own tune It will be the afternoon soon....until then...I'll be whoever I want to be - a butterfly released from its cocoon