The Battle With My Unwilling-Self

Over here in an Emotional plebiscite; Knowing it's do or die Sparked by emotional suicide These feelings linger like a pesticide, While I'm trying to go overdrive. Finally asking myself why!? Why? Why does this feel like emphatic repetition, Being manipulated by my perceptive premonitions,... Is this fate.. Or is it just intuition Oh curse these feelings of judgemental superstition! How I wish for cognitive bliss; To escape from my eternal cage of undue stress. And elope with my loving mistress or rather a damsel in distress. What is my definition of happiness? What am I to be? Elated or saddened by trivial destinies pursued. It is said that those that live in the past remain unamused; But I refuse to listen! Am I wrong for reliving moments from my past to feel contented; or am I just another demented Soul. Haunted by my unconscious consciousness; Justifying my 'skeletons in the closet ' as assimilated heirlooms.. "Oh God! someone pass me a broom!" As I sweep my past from my conscious and fumigate my overflowing closet, may these feelings of promiscuous intentions and cognitive dissonance be purged from my unwilling conscious! Copyright © Emmanuel Nyeko! Year Posted 2019