Soft-Spoken Sanity

I'm a very picky guy, getting involved With my quality quantity Oh oh look at how I have evolved It's fantastic that it's reality It's not a fantasy alone And God answered His phone No longer on my own I'm melting like an ice-cream cone I resist the urge to cut myself in slices of shame I don't want to die young, I want to live till I'm old and wise I get mad to the core when nothing goes my way...I get a certificate for a gloryless name Diamond Ruby, there's a twinkle in your eyes - it's something that prevents me from whispering my heartless lies and merciless goodbye's It's my destiny to be in God's family...that's true alright If you don't believe me, I'll show you by taking flight tonight Don't take God's name in vain - California cussing I've done again I refrain from gaining a lost thought that gets off of its tracks like a busted train God gave me chances...that were limited to ten I see Beyoncé's glee It makes me smile happily Cuz I wish I were in her shoes So I won't be singing these silly, it's-been-a-long-time Blues At least I'm the same color as the Dodgers team merchandise In their eyes, they see me as foolish wise - something to love or despise with some what's and why's I'll drink to that Till the day I pass away...born again with a bright aura Ray I'm a sneaky cat That will sleep all night and day and strays away...as he may... Listen to my voice It will soon rejoice If I got a fleek beat... repeat... I will slay it so bae, so neat!! Come back, come here Lighten up, have no fear Your Six pack, disappearing due to drinking beer I won't shed a tear and that's what up in here...wait for a miracle to appear, dear You wondering deer You wandering deer I'm still here Healing is near He's here with cheer Let your doubts disappear Like bubbles that pop By the rhythm of my rop Urgency is in my lines Feeling fine in thin lines Wish I had thicker hope these days I would've been having it My ways His ways for far better than mine...feelin' fine Mmmhmmmm mmmhmmm He is my good combination of cheese and wine Ahhhh mmmmmm ahh mmm Soft-spoken....reserved.... Outspoken...oh so absurd I talk others' ear off I like talking it tough I listened enough Now, I'm getting it rough Give in to my spell Down in the well Is where happiness dwell My desire goes pell-mell Benefitted from the past, for I'm a believer Been talked down for so long Your verbal abuse didn't really last forever Just like the fame of a song You figured me out With so little doubt Running in God's route Go ahead and laugh about I actually wanted in My hope was paper thin Where do I begin? Wrapped up in sin Down down downgraded While U R so drunk and faded Up up upgraded, so love-hated and underrated While you-you-you were so-so-so overrated Quit the stuff You put me thru I had quite enuff With being here for yoooo I rooted for you Until you let me down...downfalled my uprising and made me tread the trippy, Torture town; mindblown, but I won't throw a childish fit I haven't a clue You were up and about, telling everyone our bro secrets that made me disgracefully frown; I'll be gone before you know it Let's turn things around before you're captivity-bound What goes around comes back around without a sound I'm high above the ground Lost, but never, ever found You know, expect the unexpected Show affection towards his or her infection-cursed rejection Our geometric lines intersected Symmetrical mirrors reflect our elegant, extraordinary acception At this point in time, I have fearless boundaries Time with you so sublime Time flies in a rapid breeze Delirious daydreaming got me headaches of shame Feeling this shame, dealing with this sham without a fame name... My nature needs to be tamed and I'm the one to blame for the way I became I was a poverty predator going after my wealthy goal victim, deprived of winning a victorious game From Genesis to revelation, I will love you from beginning to end, for my love has no end That trinity thing I don't believe, though I observe and respect the Holy Spirit, I worship The Lord of Accord and I honor His sun-shining son that I welcome on even until the dusked Dawn I break...I slip...I fall...I stumble...I trip...I bend... I declare Your name to all the mirthless Earth Many brethren surround me...my spiritual family I felt like less than human, compared to God...who had a purpose for my birth and rebirth The aftershocks of an earthquake knocked me off of my feet and scattered my senses into shards of blurry worry Stuck in place, Free in space God's vast grace Fell upon my face Now, I know the truth As obvious as a healthy tooth Don't spread your morbid, abominable lies Ruthless are your time that awfully flies