Sick of Sorrow: Under Pressure

I want to be relieved I have already grieved Show me Your serenity please You swayed me next to you, being at ease Show me Your prosperous peace I have already grieved I long to be relieved However, our love – Long story short… I keep on thinking of You falling short I'm your last resort I haven’t received your gratitude You still give me that bad attitude Come shine, come fly Dove of might and flight Be mine, can't deny Your beating heart of fright Under pressure… Sick of sorrow now…I wipe off the sweat from my brow I must…oh I must endure I have a feeling of sheer faithfulness inside somehow Was I immensely deceived? Lust is what I conceived… I am far from relief From this abominable grief Sorrow wasn’t meant for tomorrow – That is what I admit I am a freedom-dwelling sparrow, Flying with quick wit I'm soaring at wing without you by my side I longed for your liberty deep down inside I yearned for your desire fire to scorch me aflame From within, I burst open and I remain not the same I'm an ember of His Kingdom I am an overly ripened plum… You're the golden nugget to my eyesight You're the brazen, illuminating slit of sunlight There is faith – no doubt about that, friend There is hope – no depression in the end Underneath the wreckage, I glance at my splintered image The tidal waves of my turmoil…that's where I toil… Neglect never-ending negativity Plant the seeds of happiness in the dampened soil… Perseverance pursues peaceably I would rather seek out radiant refuge I'm on the edge, despite my courage I got to love myself with a heart so huge But that’s beyond tribulations' hedge Am I really this dumb? I can relate to that manipulated crumb It's sincerely complicated Got used to being jaded These bittersweet emotions are but a sickly, sweet burning sage I am an elegant swan in the lake, yet a crafty snake in the cage Corruption came and it hunted me down like tormented game Flames isn’t tame, darling, and I am not the only one to blame I’ve give you almost all of me So sick of the sorrow of calamity I had to live through so much strife I thrive on delight and not doubt all my life Had enough of it in this tranquil-less chaotic life I headed your direction and landed on your knife You're a much-delayed sensation of ecstatic joy You messed me up good and left me behind like a long-lost toy Remember, you are oh so unforgotten in my fractured memory Never underestimate my power of positivity, my dearest disdain I suddenly heave a sigh as I gaze into a rainbow in the sky calmly Misunderstood in the woods of my meandering mind once again