Sexual Confusion

Maybe I want to go down this street? The light is red but I am constantly hesistating. What is wrong with me? Maybe nothing. I feel so unusal compared to the common person. They all look at me differently. Hey I even look at myself funny. Painful memories of things I wish I could do. Maybe they expect me to kiss or hold hands with someone who is opposite my sex. I don't know if that's what I want, I don't know if their's a chance for me. I heard their is a whole world who will embrace me. A world that doesn't always go in a circle. A world that doesn't always see in a straight line. If these feelings are wrong please tell me why I crave them?