REFUTED

I dreamt of growing As I was drowning life was blocked with stones I was just a vessel that turned Sincerity would bring love I thought that's the rule of the world I leaned on opacity with unsolicited words I chose the disgrace with no rewards The nights notched me with a sharp hilt Days kept becoming dark till I quit The days were filled with cold and looked so gray Sometimes cant even remember the words and the day A piece of paper wasn't the reason Walked for miles with no destination A part of me shielded all of the harms I searched for love in the wrong arms I became the center of the joke How I left my life on the nook I became a puppet of the show The circus disgraced all my value My soldiers were badly harmed yet I sent them to combat 7 years passed The war yet last They didn't realise untill the end How I kept losing for them I achieved a death with no respect I left the battle tired and refuted I'm drowning yet I accept my cruel fate