Ode To Lost Love

I oft wonder what our life would be now, had I but the courage to stay with you somehow. No gold mined could ever replace, the love I'd found in your sweet embrace. Yes, I think of it now but to no avail, how cold it has left me as I often turn pale. Oh, I wanted it all for us I told myself, and pushed our love to the back of the shelf. You told me not to leave you there, fool that I was, I didn't hear. A selfish being I have always been, this is the greatest of my sins. To have given up a prize I should have known, far better than the one that I was shown. Since the day I made that terrible choice, there are the lonely moments when I hear your voice. You went away in the pain I inflicted on you, my foolish chase came at a cost to me too. So in this darkness through my tears, I beg your forgiveness for all of these years. You had a child that was not mine, You needed a love more gentle and kind. A love I once had and too late tried to save, So I'll take only our memories when I go to my grave. Memories of two loving hearts, that through my greed I had torn apart. What will I say to God about my choice? I know not...if I can even find my voice.