Never Be Good Enough
I'm sick of all of the secrets & I'm tired of all of the lies
I'm tired of all of them stupid boys - making me feel all this sickness inside
I'm done with all of the negativity - I'm done with all of the fakes
I'm over all of their fantasy-worlds - and I'm over all of the snakes
I'm going to singlehandedly kill this one if he continues the abuse
However; I can replace it - so I don't care at all that I'm being used
I'm slowly preparing myself to finally get out & ghost
From the person that was supposed to take care of me the most
Today it's been seven whole nefarious frightening years
But I'm just drowning deeper & deeper in these quicksand tears
He's watching but he won't throw me a life boat
He has on three layers of dry clothes on, but can plainly see that I'm soaked
Layer upon layer all these years like an onion I peeled him back
But every single time I'm out of line for a lady, or speak my mind - I get attacked
Every time I disagree with him I get in trouble so much more
But if he's here he'll kill me - if I begin to run for that door
So I chill & strategize 'cause I've had to do this before
Last time I was stuck in an alcoholic's domestic violence lore
Why do I seem to magnetize to boys with broken & cut wings?
These same stupid boys have offered even worse girls before me wedding rings
It's gonna keep on happening to me 'til I f--king learn
That my heart, love, respect, faithfulness, & loyalty most men don't deserve
I'm way too good of a lady to watch them stomp in my name
But silly boys will never stop abusing me, 'cause of their exes before me to blame
I'm too damn golden to let another boy ever tarnish my vision
So the best answer to this equation is simple division
If I succeed to reclaim myself & my peace
Maybe watching me happily will shift their belief
Maybe when I finally walk away they'll all come to see
Because they never chose to rise to my level - they'll never be good enough for me
Copyright © Holly Knoles | Year Posted 2022
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