Maintain Diligence

***Part 2 -last part- of the series, Not Focused (written entirely by J.W. Earnings)*** Hear me out in the dark woods of my bewildered mind and save me from evil deeds I am intrigued by Your spiritually important, intelligent instruction that improves our function I cannot stand the vile, egotistical greed I see constantly and sadly, they grow like weeds I hope we could harness holy harmony within ourselves to do away with destruction Fortitude's interlude will elevate my traumatized ears definitely I have heard rejection and hopelessness for many years frankly Fascinate me sevenfold with flawless freedom that is beyond brilliant I am severely hurt by the absence of past friends that I deemed significant With sincere humility and oh so apologetically, I focus on walking Your precious, narrow pathway Oh my God, help me to be focused completely I was not focused – doused in detrimental dismay Set my gaze from zealous heights above Allow me to go forward without distractions I apologize for my downfalls of jaded love I’m not focused due to expired satisfactions Discard useless satisfactions… Disregard my daily distractions I was not focused on You - I am guilty as charged, but listen, Lord I was not focusing on Your Word of truth and awe-inspired accord I was not focused…not focused…the aftermath of my sins, I can’t afford Sorry for not being focused and unprepared and lazy and bored… Procrastination paralyzed me and these tears of troubled turmoil, I hoard Resurrect my hushed, solace-longing voice from the debris Wandering in the wilderness of unconditional hospitality Quenched in the qualms of our relationship – are you a friend or a foe? I must love my enemies, regardless of my shattered frame of mind, Reducing me to rage and woe, but I will regain my grip of forgiveness though You appreciate my anticipation and all You have accepted my faithful prayer passionately With knowledge of never-ending nirvana Your audacious, gracious righteousness is my liberty Ignite me once more with your invincible integrity Innovate in me your long-suffering, inspirational insight You can make me a bizarre zero to divine infinity Conquer me with your incredible patience tonight I am determined to be all-the-more dependent on You Instead of complaining about what I’ve gone through Deliver my lost soul out of worthless captivity I don’t want to be a prisoner to your awful reality I need your help through my countless prayers and cries I breed sorrow, for I was not focused on another tomorrow Sorry, I hurt you tremendously…I noticed by your goodbyes You wanted me out of the picture, now I feel numb and hallow Please hear me out, yes, I will admit… I wasn’t intimate with shameless bliss…brought low by the abyss I was trapped in this pangs-of-pain pit Distracted at all angles and I was not focused on sheer cheerfulness I pray I be rescued by God-sent angels from this regret on the brain Refrain from driving me insane! Your departure threw me down the drain! Take heed of my screwed-up, muffled voice I was extremely vulnerable… Defeated by disdain with no choice I was sensitive and unstable… You should have noticed that I was not focused… I have tried to change, although I fussed and cussed… Forgive me always, You must… I was not focused…not focused... Gladness rusts and turns to dust And, again, falling victim to lust... I long for a few more chances to earn back Your tranquil trust! These stupid shenanigans and poor choices – I didn’t mean to bust.. I already know I was not focused on smiling away the hardships I couldn’t help but carelessly kiss our broken promises' cruel lips Worrying will get me nowhere near the path of pure, placid prosperity Desert the temptation of being distracted – I was not focused, so I’m sorry Trust me, I will focus on being hopeful and happy, not acting insecure and coy I won't doubt; instead, I’ll walk His remarkable route for the sake of surreal joy I was not focused, but I won’t be negative and in despair anymore Friend of mine, the one that got away…change is a challenging chore… I was not focused; however, I will persistently figure out a way To maintain focus as I get back on track towards Your pathway