Maintain
Ask me how I'm doing now and I'm just maintaining, just to maintain it
Its raw deep and seeded, an explanation doesn't really justify the details
I knew i was stronger than most when i consoled my own heart
As i silently watched you give away everything that i ever deserved
Its been a few more years past now and it still hurts
I feel jaded, I held on for so long, rewriting the wrongs
Somedays it just feels like ripping the stitches out of wounds over and over
I don't even know anymore how to approach it, I just want closure
But it hurts me to have to hurt you
And then when you do hurt, I hurt again too, pain times two
So, I let my heartbreak for your heart, so your heart don't have to just to sustain you
There is a rawness and discord intertwined in that type of pain
So, I bare the burden of your heartache just to protect you
I can't let the anguish and atrocities subdue and consume you
So I give every allegiance and conviction that I have in me, to you
So that I can endow you.
Copyright © Bessie Kolb | Year Posted 2019
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