Love Me, Save Me

No one is willing to answer my phone calls unfortunately Nobody cares to save me or love me deliberately I’m sorry, this is how I tremendously feel But, of course, obviously, it’s no big deal Negativity wraps around my neck like a scarf would irrationally Love me, save me and keep me safe, bravery from within Positivity needs to come rescue me from the flames of uncertainty Love me, save me and seek my face, inner grace and cover my sin Love from above weaves miracles in my life While hatred and gossip ends up with strife We all know I have screwed up greatly So, please forgive me once more maybe? I have gambled with my money again I have won something, but I still losing hope and faith — where do I begin? Doubt drowns me, desperately trying to please Him from on high But, my addictions and my afflictions and my inflictions of painful pleasure makes my joy dry I’m unapologetic that I’m stronger than I realize and I’m not a failure at all…though I feel utter regret Ironically, I feel weak and bleak and cannot speak, even if I did win that damn lottery ticket I still hear my voices, echoing in my wearisome brain Saying everyone hates me and everyone’s after me, after me I still trying to survive the aches, driven extremely insane Repaying my abominations and giving it my all to be free It’s a disaster, living in my skin of sullen sulking and revolting lamentation deeply I served the wrong master, thinking I had good motives and intentions — I manipulated my way toward home It’s a pity really that I had to transform into this monster of blasphemy and atrocity I deserve to die for the wrongs I’ve done heartlessly and I deserve to be on my own…a worthless wanderer with no where to roam I just want to numb the sorrows of dismay I started off this lovely month of April on a remarkable start Then, I messed up once more in disarray I discarded His truth and wisdom and thought it smart Well, guess what? I’m without a trace… I’m denser than a mule, walking miles and miles away from its habitation I know I have acted like a total nutcase I acted more ridiculous and dumb than ten million foolish men, jumping the gun Cuz I’m done…I’m done acting like a selfish, anguished man that lost his mind train Cuz I’m done…I’m gone away like a stubborn, rebellious guy who ends up in prison in vain Cuz I have won back my faith and hope in Him and it will always remain that way As long as I don’t turn back and go back to my addictive behavior both night and day I want to stay loyal to You I don’t care what I did in the past of rue What I have been through Doesn’t matter anymore, as long as I please You, true Motionless melodies and heavenly harmonies blend sweet like vanilla cream and the finest coffee Thanks to God and His angels who I have set me free from misery and making me feel a little more happy! You see? Even as broken and shameful I was before, You can still survive and thrive to the core all the more And gain His saving, beloved grace And embrace a tranquility’s trustworthy trace And pray away the pain of yesterday’s mistakes Love me, save me, believe in me, grieve not till the dawn awakes Holding you close like poetry and prose Feel your glimmering, glistening, glorious and grand grace in front of my fretful, grimacing face Saw sweat below your poise, pretty nose Reveal to me a way to undeal my cards of bad luck and give me a gracious trace