like u care

I wish people wouldn’t take me for granted… I wish people would understand I get angry I wish people wouldn’t mention things that hurt others… I wish people would not gossip and let me be I wish people wouldn’t hurt my feelings I have been dealing with this heartache for years on end and I’ve been shattered by fears I wish people would respect me and not bring up my past doings I have been stealing this feeling of comfort from these shedding of endless, grieving tears I wish you’d understand where I stand in this I wish you wouldn’t give me so much distress You don’t care much about my hopelessness Fine, be a bitter wood and I’ll make progress I wish people wouldn’t blackmail me for the way I feel… I pray you’d save me from myself, feeling insecure I prayed a million, billion, trillion times like no big deal… I may say this before I go — find me an infinite cure I wish people could have a heart or two Maybe, if I wasn’t so stubborn, I’d grow up too I wish people could think before they say Because it hurts, living this way in disarray In dismay, I cry out to You I pray in this wrecked, poetic rue I wish you’d keep your opinions to yourself too Shoo away the desires of hurting myself, true I hate the way I’ve become… This man of a single bread crumb You devoured me in the fire of your lying You tortured me with your…constant denying I deny the lies you spread about me I deny the lies you have in your head I deny the lies you speak of so highly I deny the lies that don’t set free the truth in utter dread Instead, give me beautiful, sugarcoated lies in disgrace Instead, I wish people wouldn’t be so ignorant Instead, I pray in my mindset and in my mind space Instead, let me live life without mentioning the past and make the future that more significant I wish people would see that I’m significant and strong I wish people could believe in the truth behind the lies I wish people would simply belong and tell me that I’m not wrong To feel the way I feel…despite your heartless goodbyes Farewell, Where will you dwell? Away from me? No one could tell I’m under a wicked spell I’m living a heaven and a hell Look at my eyes — these tears swell Inside my inner being and I’m crawling into my shell All of me is going pell-mell What’s that awful, rancid smell? That’s the heartache I have to deal with…I will surely endure That’s the loneliness I had to bear Cuz I have so much more heartfelt pages of rage to tear Angry that you hurt others for your own gain and pleasure Go ahead, let your emotions flare Cuz I have so much more bittersweet, forlorn poetry to share Like you… Truly care… It’s true — Life’s not fair — like u care