I Blame Me

When it mattered most I traded ego at ridiculous cost. Like cud I chewed my pride Caring less what brewed inside. Your eyes your smile are fire Ceaselessly tickled my desire. Aloft in imaginary trance I ascended in your mere glance. Now I need your touch, but You are far beyond my reach. My efforts surmount to folly as I submerged into wishful agony. Captured in picture of imaginations Are dawdlings and procrastinations As my hesitant guts couldn't find The way out of my mind. Mind, a crush site for my dreams, Heart arid no love flowing streams Only whimpers of rued pride and hatred Regretting moments I took for granted. My fantasies hound my reality Trapped dream endure in illusions. Fear swallowed my bravery Chained in deplored heart's slavery. I wallowed in assumed rejection Isolating my own affection Encompassing its edges with fret Breeding wishful thinking and regret. Poyetik enej