I lost my last strength

I am happy, very, that I am over you and you can go on and love someone else. The day though I still had feelings for you, nearly it had been a year hadn't it? Were I gifted you something but I didn't know, that day was one of my classmates birthday and I saw that a other one obeserved me and laughed. I knew he had a crush on me but I still didn't wanted to confont him about it because it's okay, If he tells me that I'll say: ,,Thank you so much for telling me that. That takes a lot of strength. I respect your feelings but I am sorry, I don't have feelings for you. But do you wanna be friends?", and even offer you a hand. Even thought about it several times. Today in sports you did something dumb. I just tried to have a good grade with help. Because one of our classmates said: ,,Adna, you will have difficulties with pulling that thing up", and because I wanted to Show him otherwise, I did both sides for fun. Suddenly you said: ,,Adna, you are even stronger then him!", I turned around shortly but quickly looked away. My expression madly confused. Oh, how I hate this world.