Real pain

Double pain in my heart The sad I feel tears me apart From my our family I had to band my brother That would of killed our mother The operation didn't hurt this bad Or make me as sad Truth is my brother is a self confessed child molester Justifies it to this day They wanted it he does say I love my brother regardless try to be there Let him know someone did care Today he called On his way says he I couldn't let that be Letting a wolf loose From all our children he would be able to choose I banned him from our life's More than just the strifes My little sisters her kids Their children. Would be wrong. Did not even take that long Here I cry Feeling like I'm going to die Setting my soul free to fly I know I did right My soul hurts Tonight He says he will kill himself if I see it through. Thanks brother makes me that much more blue Please ,,, just tore my heart open twice Neither times has been nice Trying to keep my heart from turning to ice I just want a chance at this life that they have given to me I start to see what there really be when we was kids wasn't daddy but really just you. Memories now of what was true. I don't know why I cry I still love you with all my heart I fight to keep myself from falling apart I go forward Towards You will not cheat me From a future I wish to see You tainted my soul Thinking that is life's goal I rise above Thankful I can still feel love