Coming Clean - Just That Archaic Poet's Blog

It's time to come clean, to own up and admit to my mistakes, misbehavior, and machinations. I joked about "plotting" and "ousting" people, and the joke went way too far because it was taken literally and seriously, as if I actually possessed the power to exile someone from the site. You know what? That was wrong, and in the process, I hurt a lot of people and I have been responsible and at the center of much of the drama that has plagued the site for the past week or so. My behavior helped to warp our haven, and I have been wrong on so many levels; I admit it. 

I am taking responsibility for my actions. I've talked smack about people behind their back; a lot of us have; let's just admit it: it DOES go on. I am guilty of it. The feuding must stop for the sake of peace and harmony. We don't have to all hold hands and sing kumbaya, but we can stand united beside one another and put our differences aside. I'm airing out all my dirty laundry here. I am owning my fault and guilt and apologizing to the people I hurt; to make amends is the only thing I know, and one thing that AA has taught me.

It would make me happy if we all come clean, admit our mistakes and make amends. I am just as guilty as some others; I'm curious if they, too, will come clean.

I've been wrong on so many levels it's not funny, literally. I'm not a bad person, but I have made big mistakes and I am here to apologize, sincerely. No more fighting or bad-mouthing. Let's all concentrate on producing great poetry instead of feuding. All I want is peace and serenity.

Again, I take full responsibility for my wrongful actions. I ask for your forgiveness and for your patience. This is a most trying and taxing time in my life. I battle addiction and the symptoms of my mental illnesses, all day, everyday. I have Borderline Disorder; look it up. It's a terrible affliction. I'm not going to blame my errors and poor decisions on my illnesses or my father's kidney cancer. They were just catalysts that brought out the worst emotions in me and I took my fear and anger out on mostly undeserving people (some deserved to be verbally eviscerated, though, and I make no apologies for that). But I do apologize for all my mistakes and bad behavior.

Again, let's all just put our differences aside and focus on our artistry. The Soup is about poetry and fellowship, not feuding and fighting. Let's have peace and harmony, for the sake of all. Thanks for listening. ~ Chan

Nette Onclaud Date: 12/18/2013 11:59:00 AM blessed be, arc.. huggs to you! Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 1:33:00 PM Thanks so much, and hugs to you as well, Nette :)

Charmaine Chircop Date: 12/18/2013 10:05:00 AM I learn so much from qoutes.Somewhere I read this quote-One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.. So yes We all have our differences..But Yes everyone can ask to be forgiven cause we re all eligible to hurt one another in the heat of the moment..We ask to be forgiven..We forgive and even forget..So sometimes this qoute above helps me a great deal to find happiness within.. : ) amen Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 1:34:00 PM Thank you for the thoughtful reply, Charm; you always have something wise to say :)

Andrea Dietrich Date: 12/18/2013 8:06:00 AM Is anyone else noticing this? Whenever I try to put through comments on blogs now, it doesn't work until I hilight my comment!!! Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 1:36:00 PM Mine is working fine as well. Wonder what's up? Hope it clears up for you! :) Charmaine Chircop Date: 12/18/2013 10:07:00 AM mine is working fine dear

Andrea Dietrich Date: 12/18/2013 8:06:00 AM Hi, Chan, Just stopped by to say hello and Merry Christmas. The New Year is a good time to put aside differences and sing Kumbaya. haha. Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 1:35:00 PM Merry Christmas to you too, Andrea. Thanks for dropping by and for reading. It's time to turn over a new leaf :) Charmaine Chircop Date: 12/18/2013 10:06:00 AM Hi andrea dear lady : )

Skat A Date: 12/17/2013 10:53:00 PM I don't know what to say. :) Cheers & Thanks. ~SKAT~ Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 1:54:00 PM You are welcome, Skat. Congratulations on the birth of your new baby. Love the name you picked. I wish you and your family well :)

Debbie Guzzi Date: 12/17/2013 7:34:00 PM Hey I like to sing kumbaya! I like Down by the River Side too!& the Cat Came Back! ut oh I'm slipping back into Girl Scout Camp! Login to Reply Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/17/2013 7:54:00 PM you have a box those de-lish peanut butter cookies? If so, you MUST share! ;)

Poet Destroyer A Date: 12/17/2013 7:23:00 PM thank you for making my day :-)...Linda Login to Reply Poet Destroyer A Date: 12/18/2013 3:27:00 PM Yes, sometimes they become the best of friends... Just That Archaic Poet Date: 12/18/2013 3:25:00 PM Thank you for being forgiving :) ~Chan