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Blog Posted:6/25/2025 4:31:00 PM

Dear Soup Community,

This is embarrassing, but last week I posted a blog while belligerantly intoxicated (I do not even remember writing and posting it), and I removed it as soon as I woke up the next morning and became aware of it.

I want to sincerely apologize to anyone who was unfortunate enough to happen upon that blog, as it was an ego-driven political rant and was completely vile and profane.

I won't go into further detail, but my sincerest apologies, I am going to be taking a hiatus from this site and work on not being a raging and rambling alcoholic spewing hate online.

Cheers to art and community.

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Crystol
Woods

Date: 7/12/2025 8:22:00 AM

We all make mistakes though not all are brave enough to admit and apologize... for that I salute you. Just a side note... although you were intoxicated, those were your words and feelings at your most uninhibited. I have no idea what you wrote but perhaps you should talk to someone you trust about it? I hope you find peace of mind about whatever was bothering you. Thanks for your brave apology and confession. I pray you defeat your demons. Xo<3

Riley
Ryleigh

Date: 7/1/2025 12:25:00 PM

Fortunately, I missed it but your apology is accepted and you are forgiven. :-)

Tom Woody
Date: 7/2/2025 5:02:00 AM

"karma karma karma karma karma chameleon you come and go you come and goooo..."

Beej Simrov
Date: 7/1/2025 10:16:00 PM

Karma will see if I am forgiven, Riley, lol thank you

David
Crandall

Date: 6/29/2025 10:20:00 AM

I missed it, but good luck, Beej. I agree it's good to be accountable, but it seems you're a bit hard on yourself. I hope you keep writing.

Beej Simrov
Date: 7/1/2025 10:16:00 PM

Thank you, David, someone has to be hard on me

thriveni c
mysore

Date: 6/27/2025 9:56:00 PM

I now really want to read that blog. Mr Hyde is in every Mr Jekyll dear poet, so keep on your trail. happy writing.

Beej Simrov
Date: 7/1/2025 10:15:00 PM

Jekyll was not being cute that day, so no you don't want to read it lol

Susan
Ashley

Date: 6/26/2025 6:13:00 PM

Dear BJ, I missed your last blog but I admire the heartfelt spirit of this blog. Your self-reflection is truly inspiring. I appreciate your thoughtful words and hope you continue to create and post your wonderful poetry here at PS. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 6:24:00 PM

Susan, I am glad you missed it lol, and thank you for your kind words, warmest wishes to you as well <3

Jeff
Kyser

Date: 6/26/2025 3:25:00 PM

Writing can be catharsis too - don't disappear - write it out! Who knows, maybe that's what you needed to make a change. Dude, you have no idea how bad I used to drink/rage, but that's coming up on 20 years in the rear view mirror. Life is wonderful, but sometimes it takes a real shake-up before we discover that. Blessings to you.

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 6:23:00 PM

Although it was cathartic, it was vein, vulgar and malicious, and no one here deserves to see that lol, blessings to you too and congrats on the 20 years, I admire you for that.

Kim
Rodrigues

Date: 6/26/2025 1:38:00 PM

First of its kind, probably not. I didn’t see it, but thank you for admitting. A sober apology…okay a little humor to lighten things up.

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 6:21:00 PM

Probably not indeed, and thank you for the humor, Kim.

Brandy
Nicole

Date: 6/26/2025 9:25:00 AM

You've been through so much, BJ. Taking a step back so you can get through these moments is completely understandable. My best to you. ~ Brandy

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 6:20:00 PM

Thank you kindly, Brandy <3

Ink
Empress

Date: 6/26/2025 6:24:00 AM

Ah its ok we live in such uncertain times, so it is likely for us to somehow somewhere say somethings we dont mean. So nice of you to apologize, not a sight we often see. Beautiful trait really .. i didnt see the blog but i appreciate this sincere gesture. Sending you light

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 9:04:00 AM

I am glad you did not see it, it was absolutely heinous and out of character, but thank you for the light, Ink.

Tom
Woody

Date: 6/26/2025 5:17:00 AM

Sounds like a plan Beej

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/26/2025 9:03:00 AM

It's official, I go by "Beej" now

Andrea
Dietrich

Date: 6/25/2025 10:25:00 PM

I saw it and really disliked it, so thanks for apologizing and taking it down. I thought Soup had done it. Haha

Andrea Dietrich
Date: 6/27/2025 2:28:00 PM

Lol

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/25/2025 10:42:00 PM

I am so sorry, Andrea, it was putrid and I really want to rip my skin off from embarrassment and feel like I insulted everyone who witnessed it...maybe we can add a breathalyzer to posts for myself

Keith D
Trestrail

Date: 6/25/2025 7:53:00 PM

I saw your blog and commented on it. It was inappropriate and unhinged but we all do things we are not proud of. We all need to vent once in a while. With this blog you have shown great character and a capacity for self-reflection, and for that you should be proud.

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/25/2025 8:09:00 PM

Thank you Keith, yes it was inappropriate and unhinged and I am so sorry that I deigned to write it and that you saw it. Your words are really helpful and I really admire your outlook and perspective, and will use them to shape my future words.

Mark
Toney

Date: 6/25/2025 7:37:00 PM

Thank you, B.J.

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/25/2025 8:10:00 PM

Jaymee
Thomas

Date: 6/25/2025 6:09:00 PM

I didn't see your blog, but I can appreciate your sincerity and sense of regret. It's important to be accountable, and woefully rare to find a person ready for that. I respect your willingness to admit a mistake, take responsibility and be transparent about it. Cheers to you back.

Beej Simrov
Date: 6/25/2025 6:57:00 PM

Thank you, Jaymee, your words were really uplifting, and I am excited to explore your work.

My Past Blog Posts


Apologies Date Posted: 6/25/2025 4:31:00 PM
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Censored Word Date Posted: 9/14/2024 9:58:00 PM

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6/25/2025	I Feel Pasts	Free verse	addiction,age,emotions,fe
6/25/2025	F the Doors Open	Free verse	america,analogy,anti bull
5/2/2025	Spells	Free verse	art,deep,drink,language,m
4/27/2025	A Warning to Conspiracy, the Paranormal and the Occult	Rhyme	america,anger,anti bullyi
4/25/2025	Djinn Martini	Rhyme	best friend,fantasy,fun,h
4/25/2025	Trolls, Bots and Spidered Webs	Rhyme	allusion,america,corrupti
3/23/2025	Angles	Free verse	america,analogy,extended
3/6/2025	Emo Appetizer	Free verse	absence,angst,art,care,co
2/27/2025	These Useless Words of Mine	Free verse	angst,anxiety,depression,
2/27/2025	Puddles	Free verse	allusion,humanity,introsp
2/23/2025	Internal Cold War	Free verse	abuse,age,allusion,americ
1/30/2025	Spasms	Rhyme	absence,addiction,how i f
1/30/2025	Splitting Us and Them	Free verse	america,conflict,hate,ide
1/29/2025	Capitalism is Artificial Intelligence	Free verse	america,angst,history,soc
1/29/2025	Idly Fret	Rhyme	addiction,body,dark,endur
1/12/2025	Do You Believe in Magic?	Free verse	absence,dark,depression,d
1/2/2025	Windy Nights and Mornings	Rhyme	feelings,good morning,jan
12/30/2024	Economies for Cadavers	Rhyme	abuse,america,business,ch
12/30/2024	The Lady Who Didn't Know What a Year Is	Dramatic Monologue	america,funny,giggle,grow
12/16/2024	Immolation: Words From the First	Free verse	abuse,addiction,corruptio
12/16/2024	Immolation: Words From the Second	Sonnet	abuse,addiction,anxiety,e
12/10/2024	The Mask of Black Spinel	Couplet	angst,dream,evil,horror,i
12/5/2024	I Invoke the Sandman	Free verse	2nd grade,absence,care,co
12/5/2024	I Saw a Storm of Ice and Stone	Rhyme	age,analogy,dark,evil,got
11/10/2024	The Love Song of Frederick Usher	Rhyme	america,angst,anti bullyi
11/6/2024	Kingdom Came	Rhyme	america,history,political
10/12/2024	More is Less	Rhyme	abuse,anxiety,depression,
9/15/2024	New Proletariat: Millennial Epilogue	Free verse	age,america,anger,change,
8/17/2024	A Real Boy	Free verse	age,courage,innocence,oce
7/18/2024	Raised by Trauma	Free verse	abuse,age,anger,anxiety,f
7/7/2024	If Kingdom Comes, We'll Be Undone	Rhyme	abuse,america,leadership,
7/5/2024	A Proper Lover	Free verse	abuse,america,angst,beaut
3/17/2024	Inter-Dimension	Free verse	angst,anxiety,conflict,da
9/10/2023	Bow To Me	Rhyme	allegory,confusion,crazy,
9/10/2023	Sane Again	Rhyme	adventure,age,anxiety,cou
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8/2/2023	Nova Proletarium	Free verse	america,anger,angst,anxie
7/11/2023	Living	Free verse	age,dark,death,depression
6/10/2023	Trapped Inside a Poet	Rhyme	absence,anxiety,life,natu
6/5/2023	Shagalicious	Free verse	fun,humanity,life,myth,pe
6/4/2023	The Mask of Labradorite	Rhyme	corruption,imagination,ju
5/29/2023	Analysis Paralysis	Rhyme	angst,anxiety,fun,mental
5/22/2023	And So	Free verse	analogy,birth,creation,fa
5/7/2023	Do We Have Nothing Left?	Free verse	america,happiness,home,hu
5/6/2023	I Turn You Into Poems	Rhyme	myth,nature,poems,poetry,
5/5/2023	Explanation	Rhyme	age,deep,fun,humor,muse,w
4/20/2023	Not Sure	Rhyme	confusion,depression,feel
3/13/2023	Animal	Rhyme	america,analogy,animal,se
2/22/2023	Confidence Is a Choice	Free verse	age,appreciation,confiden
1/28/2023	Death	Rhyme	age,death,depression,imag
1/24/2023	Neo-Suicide	Couplet	12th grade,death,depressi
10/30/2022	The River Styx	Rhyme	addiction,angst,dark,deat
10/30/2022	Not In Today	Rhyme	addiction,analogy,appreci
5/6/2022	Sputnik and the Moon	Rhyme	america,light,love,men,mo
2/23/2022	Monetize Me	Rhyme	addiction,america,busines
2/15/2022	Inner Dialogues Gone Wrong: To See or Not to See	Dramatic Monologue	confusion,introspection,m
5/8/2020	Household Cosmonauts	Free verse	adventure,appreciation,ge
5/7/2020	A Voice Not Yet Nor More	Pantoum	for teens,integrity,inter
9/11/2019	Mind Full, Less Mind	Rhyme	happy,how i feel,husband,
9/11/2019	Soul Mate	Rhyme	deep,happy,health,how i f
4/28/2019	Real Questions From Idiots	Free verse	life,men,mental illness,p
4/28/2019	Vomit	Free verse	art,humor,humorous,parody
4/20/2019	What Should We Believe?	Rhyme	allah,bible,god,longing,r
4/20/2019	Brain Computer Interface	Free verse	betrayal,computer,corrupt
3/22/2019	What Do I Mean?	Couplet	color,confusion,life,poem
3/22/2019	Penny Dreadfull	Couplet	angst,anxiety,dark,evil,f
2/27/2019	Demonic Touch	Rhyme	art,life,poems,poetry,psy
1/23/2019	The Mask of Tourmaline	Couplet	anxiety,horror,imaginatio
1/21/2019	Why Write	Couplet	art,confusion,life,poems,
1/9/2019	Hive Mind	Free verse	life,psychological,repeti
11/29/2018	Its Beginning To Look a Lot Like Crapitalsm	Rhyme	christmas,holiday,humor,h
11/29/2018	Recycling Reasons For Being	Free verse	birth,life,
10/20/2018	Curse of Lies	Rhyme	analogy,dark,life,light,m
8/16/2018	Horizon Tide	Couplet	august,autumn,farewell,fr
7/4/2018	Fear Only Fear	Rhyme	courage,fear,
6/21/2018	Spenserian Stanza: Summer Thunder	Rhyme	light,storm,summer,
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PoemTitle	Form	Categories
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Long Live the King	Sonnet	environment,
A Quiet River	Rhyme	adventure,allegory,allusi
The Enmity	Light Verse	feelings,history,identity
Harvey Denning 1909-1923	Epitaph	death,universe,
Unidentified Extraterrestrials Willingly Abducted Me	Free verse	absence,adventure,august,
Rejoice At the Gift of Restored Health	Rhyme	angst,blessing,brother,de
Anti-Poem Iphone Maniacs	Free verse	life,
Tingling Scalp	Enclosed Rhyme	10th grade,11th grade,12t
Empire Down I	Free verse	allegory,allusion,analogy
Antipoem 2	Free verse	memory,
Peristalsis of Darkness	Rhyme	anger,anxiety,depression,
Symbiosis	Free verse	girlfriend,
The Next Hitler	Free verse	holocaust,
The Now Continuum	Free verse	age,beauty,bird,first lov
The Co-dependent	Pantoum	addiction,
Through the Keyhole	Iambic Pentameter	dream,fantasy,
Scarlet Roses	Elegy	death,grief,hurt,loneline
Perpetual War	Free verse	allegory,america,anger,ar
A Confession	Dramatic Monologue	betrayal,death,heart,imag
Dobro Pozhalovat	Masnavi	allah,creation,feelings,
Hi Storm	Free verse	brother,drug,forgiveness,
Relapse	Rhyme	addiction,drink,drug,ment
My New Old Mourning Routine	Free verse	break up,heartbreak,heart
Wretched emasculated celibate anchorite	Free verse	adventure,allegory,animal
a poem inspired by glitchore that will age poorly probably	Free verse	computer,funny,irony,musi
Refections of the Past, Visions of the Future	Dramatic Monologue	emotions,family,identity,
Canaknas	Free verse	childhood,christian,nosta
Ballad for the Wacky Waving Inflatable Tube-Man	Rhyme	allegory,anxiety,funny,li
Alabaster White	Free verse	addiction,allegory,allusi
Husband Feebly Tried To Smite Figuratively	Rhyme	betrayal,conflict,depress
October 2018 Besieged By Fruit Flies	Free verse	12th grade,absence,animal