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The Smoke And Mirrors Mirage Of My Saving Grace

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There comes a time in life, a time of struggle and strife, when salvation may be sought; a deliverance from harm, pain or sin and its consequences - but instead, all that is found is false hope and no relief.  In times like these, there is a need to look more deeply. It's important to remember that no one can save you but yourself, along with your willingness to surrender and God.  This is my belief...




The black-as-widow’s-weeds night of endless stars was so cold... cruel as the temperature plunged its frigid fingers feeling through my being ~ fondling my heart and soul without mercy molesting me - taunting my will to live and just when I thought the ice water in my shivering veins would kill me there she was She came shyly at first ~ demurely spreading her pinkening skirts over the horizon while her blushing complexion deftly gelded the darkness I prayed-I pleaded-I made deals (with who? You don’t want to know..) that her warming smile would be my saving grace… It began to slowly dawn on me as she flexed her sinewy heat waves of solar power that I was caught between false hope and no deliverance for the desert sunrise-to-sunset now faced-off and challenged me with its barren bone-dry intensity sucking dry the new dew and any life containing moisture Weathered granular remains of ancient feldspar and quartz with eons of sifting and shifting boredom took on a hell-raising life of their own as the fire-breathing celestial sorceress casted spells of smoke and mirror mirages and magically made the ridges of rippling blond sands glisten like clinquant scales of a million skimming sidewinders writhing in joy at my agony It’s amazing how cold I feel when I have been so burned again I face a desolate night - deserted - without a blanket Susan Ashley April 29, 2018 ______________________________ Widow’s Weeds: For women of 19th century England, a custom of mourning that involved wearing heavy, concealing, black clothing and the use of heavy veils of black crepe. The entire ensemble was colloquially known as ‘widow’s weeds’. Mourning - Wikipedia

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Date: 5/9/2018 5:13:00 PM
I love reading your poetry. Your imagery always astounds me and I must read it two or three times just to take it in.
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Susan Ashley
Date: 5/15/2018 10:40:00 AM
Alesia, your visit warms my heart. Thank you for the humbling honor of your beautiful comments and for sharing your lovely thoughts. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 5/7/2018 7:13:00 AM
I truly and deeply love your poetry my friend. Its messages, depths and beauty are magnificent to behold! And to me that is the true mark, of a true and great poet.. How could I not fav this exquisite gem?
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Date: 5/8/2018 9:43:00 PM
I am both humbled and honored by your generous and beautiful comments, my dear friend, Robert. I'm overjoyed by your response to my poem and I deeply appreciate your wonderful thoughts. Your kindness inspires me to reach higher, my friend.. Many thanks for the fav as well.. Warmest wishes to you and your lovely family.. ~Susan
Date: 5/3/2018 12:58:00 PM
the texture of your poetry allows one to see what poetry truly is, Thank you for that, it is truly a pleasure to read your work
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Date: 5/5/2018 11:29:00 AM
Frederic, your heartfelt comment means so much to me.. I'm so happy you value my poetry, as you are a poet I hold in highest regard. I relish your kindness and your wonderful thoughts.. Warmest wishes, my friend. ~Susan
Date: 5/2/2018 12:45:00 PM
Wow, Susan, what an amazing piece. Your imagery always makes your poems such a joy to read. You rock my friend. John
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Date: 5/5/2018 11:26:00 AM
John, your sentiments are cherished. Thank you for spending time with my poetry - your friendship and support are truly appreciated. Warmest wishes, my friend. ~Susan
Date: 5/2/2018 9:35:00 AM
Absolutely brilliant Susan, wow what an amazing piece of writing, I was imagining that I was experiencing this nightmare scenario as I was reading, thanks for sharing beautifully written as usual. :))
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Date: 5/5/2018 11:18:00 AM
I relish your kindness, Roy. Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts with me in your lovely comments. Your visits always delight me :)) Warmest wishes, my friend. ~Susan
Date: 4/30/2018 5:23:00 PM
A hell on Earth. It sizzles.
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Date: 4/30/2018 8:10:00 PM
Thank you, Jean. I am delighted by your kindness. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 4/30/2018 4:43:00 PM
Wonderful writing Susan, some of us have been burned so many times, that only cold air travels through the flames of our candles...All the best...Stay well....Charlie
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Date: 4/30/2018 8:17:00 PM
Yes, so true, Charles, being burned can leave one cold inside. I adore your elegantly stated interpretive comments. Your wonderful perception grasps my intentions beautifully. Thank you for sharing your treasured thoughts with me and delighting me with your visit. Warmest wishes. ~Susan
Date: 4/30/2018 3:59:00 PM
fascinated by the descriptive play of words and images... uniquely penned, susan..huggs
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Date: 4/30/2018 8:19:00 PM
Thank you Nette.. I am honored and humbled by your kindness.. Warmest wishes. ~Susan
Date: 4/30/2018 6:53:00 AM
Superly done my poetic sister...stay in the light, my friend...^WW^
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Date: 5/1/2018 5:48:00 PM
Thank you, my poetic brother, for your shining and uplifting comments. Your visit is a delight, my wonderful friend.. Warmest wishes to you always.. ~Susan
Date: 4/30/2018 5:46:00 AM
From cold to hot to cold...no shade or blanket no hope...sounds like life... Glad to see you back...I always appreciate your writing style...Now that Spring is here, look forward to reading you more...All the best to you and yours...
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Date: 5/1/2018 7:59:00 PM
Yes, it's true, Arturo.. it sounds like life or love.. like a person struggling to find salvation but finds false hope and no relief.. no one can save you but yourself and God. You lovely comments are always so insightful, mon ami. Thank you for the delight of your visit that brightened my day. Warmest wishes, my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 8:28:00 PM
Wow! Omg I see your muse did find her way back huh! Wow lmao that is truly all I can get to come out my mouth......! Truly because wow! My dear sane one you do deserve atop.here not I but I will sit the and smile all silly because that's my sane twin is what I would be saying looking like dumbo with a bid ass grin pointing at you ! Hahaha! I would gladly sit there looking like that because I have an amazing talented twin! Who loves to push myself! Lol Hugs Your mad twin
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Date: 5/14/2018 7:13:00 PM
So glad your muse found her tanned way home! But you know those tans our muses have should be ours right? Lol ! But alas we are destined to be pale women all curled up writing our writes! Hahaha! Those witches should have brought the sun to us if nothing else ! Lol! But then I guess since they believe they write instead if inspire they believe they deserve it all! I say ha! Let's tackle them duct tape them securely atop The totem and head to the beach shall we? Lmao! If they tell well as the insane twin I will take all blame! Hahaha! Have a great week my so sane twin From the crazy insane twin Your favorite lmao!
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Susan Ashley
Date: 5/5/2018 11:16:00 AM
Oh, my beautifully mad totem twin, I deserved to be knocked down from the top of the pole with my absence lately.. lol! Life has totally gotten in the way of my time here on PS and our crazy chats (that I sorely miss) :)) My muse did find her way back home and gave me this inspired piece - and damn she looked good with that killer tan.. haha! Thanks for sending her packin'!! lol! And thank you for your killer comments that always touch my heart and make me laugh like a mad woman haha! Love and hugs to you always. ~your, laughing like I'm mad, sane twin.. lol! :))
Date: 4/29/2018 3:26:00 PM
What a vision! At once celestial, eerie, bewitched, damned...Ach, mere adjectives do this imaginative write poor justice. John Milton is smiling down at you from Poetry Heaven. Excellence 'poetified!' Can read it over and over and over. :) Best wishes, Gershon
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Date: 5/5/2018 11:07:00 AM
Oh Gershon, let me bemoan the busy-ness of my life that has taken me away from PS way too much lately :( but, let me celebrate the wondrous-ness of your beautiful and generous comments. John Milton, now that was a glorious poet, indeed! Thank you for sharing your thoughtful and inspiring thoughts with me that always sheds sunshine on my soul. Warmest wishes, dear friend. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 2:25:00 PM
Excellent, Susan! When I was young I got badly sunburnt on more than one occasion, but I would have never dreamed of turning the experience into poetry! You describe the fluctuating temperatures in a desert in such a way that the reader finds himself in the same situation. Oh for an oasis to loom out of nowhere...but not a mirage, please:) ~ Warm regards, my friend. // paul
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Date: 5/3/2018 9:09:00 PM
Dear Paul.. the busy-ness of my life has taken me away way from PS way too much these days and I miss our more frequent interactions. Your comments are always a joy that I look forward to whenever I post a new poem. Thank you for your uplifting words that brighten me. I treasure your beautiful thoughts and your time spent here. Warmest wishes and hugs, my wonderful friend. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 1:58:00 PM
wow! I experienced the extremes of the desert cold and heat in your beautiful write...just gorgeous, Susan! :)
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Susan Ashley
Date: 5/2/2018 11:17:00 AM
Thank you, Taai, for your awesome comments. I'm so happy you enjoyed! :)) Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 1:54:00 PM
A poetess has a world of her own! The muse of poetry and beauty has bestowed a wild imagination, unique imagery and an expressive write upon you! A captivating piece of work and a great pleasure to read your beauty! Stay blessed dear Susan.
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Susan Ashley
Date: 5/1/2018 5:44:00 PM
Besma, how fortunate am I to receive such lovely words of praise from you, my dear friend, a poet of such emotional depth and soulful beauty. My joyful spirit overflows with appreciation for your endearing comments that touch my heart and soul in friendship. Your shining and inspired essence inspires me to reach ever higher. My warmest wishes to you always.. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 1:40:00 PM
Stellar writing Susan!! Exciting and intense.. Amazing imagery!! " Such a pleasure to read, Susan.. " All the best to you..
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Date: 5/1/2018 8:52:00 PM
Your kindness fills my heart with appreciation and joy, Robertina. Your beautiful comments reflect the loveliness of your soul. Thank you for your wonderful visit and your time with my poem. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 12:48:00 PM
Wild write Susan! I could feel the weight growing with every line. Phenomenal job dear poetess. xomo :)
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Susan Ashley
Date: 4/30/2018 3:18:00 PM
Thank you, Maureen, for your valued positive feedback and uplifting comments.. your encouragement inspires me, lovely lady. Mucho hugs and love always <3 ~Susan
Date: 4/29/2018 11:56:00 AM
Hi Susan , beautifully penned my friend ::))Hugs~~~Niall
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Date: 4/29/2018 7:34:00 PM
Thank you, Niall, for the delight of your wonderful comments and visit. I'm glad you enjoyed.. Warmest wishes and hugs, my friend.. ~Susan