The Rebirth Poem Xxv - Feelings

Don't think I don't think about you. It's been rough without you. Even though I've never really had you it's been tough without you. For days, I ponder on certain ways. To praise, the beauty of your words even though your smile had me hooked for days. Hooked for days. Inject me with some pure ethanol because getting drunk off ecstasy only had my body looking for the floor. It's stupid. Why weren't you the floor? I found the floor so many times I blacked out. I practically made love to the floor but you weren't the floor. Inject me with some ethanol. I need this alcohol to be pure. Just like your feelings. Pure. But those feelings weren't strong enough so question: Are You Tryna Drink Some Wine Or Nah? Silence. The answer was never in your words anyway. So show me. Show me with your brown-inked eyes along with your inner self called Kid Chris. Go back to the 5 year old you that liked being a boy because "Girls like dolls and dolls are not real." Imagination was the real child in you but you aborted it because apparently Imagination doesn't give birth to Reality. Open your real eyes and realise that I think about you. Sorry for going off track but how can you blame me when looking into your brown ink gave birth to a little child called Reality looking for Imagination. Don't kill something that hasn't lived just because you don't know what it's like to Imagine. Feelings. Question: "Are You Tryna Drink Some Wine Or Nah?" Let's break the walls you forgot were built because you don't know how to bring them down. Would you believe me if I told you that you're just too afraid? What are people going to say? What will they think about me? Will I ever be accepted again? Irritation gets to me because I can't remember where your parents put words inside your little foetal self as if you were defined by words. I don't want to define you. I don't even want to help you define you. I just want to make sure you don't break down when you've finally defined yourself. Feelings. Question: "Are You Tryna Drink Some Wine Or Nah?" 2016/01/14