Ten Villanelles- Seventh

7 Finally stopping to catch my breath I am lost now Knowing where I failed, my very worst decision Not even recognizing myself, nor the why or how What good is the field if the farmer cannot plow Just getting by day after day without any vision Finally stopping to catch my breath I'm lost now Nothing inspires, nothing causes that internal wow Something beautiful ultimately ended in sad division Not even recognizing myself, nor the why or how Towards nothingness I move, nothing more to avow My very own existence has become my dark prison Finally stopping to catch my breath I am lost now No sweet nothings whispered, goodbye or ciao One unseen moment that ended in silent derision Not even recognizing myself, nor the why or how The curtain is closing and I will give one final bow A crash course was set, but there was no collision Finally stopping to catch my breath I am lost now Not even recognizing myself, nor the why or how