Possible Side-Effect of Living As a Hermit

Beethoven Piano Sonata No. 32 in C minor. Good ol' Ludwig belts out his wicked speel. I read some Bukowski, I put it aside, I listen I think, How many lives does the average man live before he dies? Some live too many Some live none at all Some live only one, often living none as well. I would draw but there is nothing to draw I would paint but there is nothing to paint All that exists right now is my pencil, my notebook, my wish to live before my innards die, my thoughts of Dani, and, of course, Good ol' Ludwig.