Over and Done

As I lay awake at night I wonder why I sit and cry wishing and hoping that I would die I try and think back but all I see is an unhappy kid and again its me as time has passed nothing has changed everything that was is still the same as I open my eyes I see the shame that is my life and boy am I lame I cant do any thing right so on this faithful night I take my knife it glistens and shines in the full moon light now is the end for this lost fight I hold the blade with all my might and as the knife slides throw my skin I feel the release as the flow of blood begins and it dose not cease it only grows stronger as I grow weak and soon enough I will sleep but shall I not wake from my slumber I will not dream those nightmares that wake me with my own screams to night I enter the eternal sleep and for the first and last time I smile so sweet they will see that all ways not right and find me in my bed under the covering of morning sun for my life is over and now done