Not, Never, My Vocabulary

I'm not, I never was, not, never, my vocabulary. I'm not sure why i say what i say, Im never certain why i pray day to day, Im not one for big good byes, Im never ready to let go of my pride, Im not a big dreamer or the optimistic type I'm never one to say i need you here tonight, I'm not, I never was, not, never, my vocabulary.