Lost Love

last night was the hardest night of my life. its over i told her i could take no more i told her i cant keep getting hurt by her but now i think im hurt more then ever depression is moving its way in to my body making my body weak leaving an empty feeling like somethings missing i feel so alone falling into temptation of asking her to be mine once again but resisting the thought of being broken again i miss her i wont lie 3 years together wanting her back so bad missing kissing her the touch of her skin the smell of her perfume the sound of her voice the smile on her face when she sees me happiness ceases to exist in the dictionary inside of my head flipping through every page looking for that bit of hope but all i find is the word love scribbled out feeling that the only way to be happy is to be with her but knowing if i get back with her she will just poison me with her lies even though she is 5 feet away from me it feels like we are miles apart