Longing

Misery loves me, I feed it everyday. Some days it’s envy or maybe tomorrow it’s anger. It keeps me company whether I asked it or not. I aimlessly walk through my shadow of the days. Not remembering how this came to be? I long for days when you kissed me and my wishes walked to the sun. Waiting for the night to granted me dreams to hope. Instead misery becomes me, like a death I waste. Why did our love go from good to bad? Every tear made a wish disappear . Now no nights or days feel sane. I am alone , I want to curl up in a tight ball and not breathe. I felt each moment slip away , not making a sound to pull myself back to you. I can not let you go. I am still here for you to command. How do I drag myself out of this winter storm. I long to hear you voice. Every day I wake up and miss you. My life is a shambles of regrets as I wait for you to come back. I look out the same window everyday waiting for you to turn the corner , back to my heart.