Locked Inside

There is just way too much locked inside, So many things I would love to confide. I am so angry and confused, My soul is quite oh so bruised. I want to be a whole person again, Everyone says it is just a matter of when. My life has been put on hold, And inside I feel so cold. There are days I am just so numb, Nothing warms me, not even my rum. There are days that a ray of light shines through, Then the clouds come back and I am again blue. I am told to have faith and believe, That God is there and will give reprieve. Faith in Him I do have, truth be told. I just feel He has bigger things to uphold. I am just one tiny person in a sea many, I feel like I am the bad luck penny. I have family and a few select friends, I know they have issues at their ends. Maybe I am just in so much pain, That all I feel is insane. One day soon I would love to be feel joy And no longer feel like others I annoy. I really despise all this despair, Please Lord hear my prayer.