Living Debate

Today I thought of all my stress Causing me such an unrest So much to think that I had thought Would it be better to live or not? Get this straight: I'm no cutter No pill taker; def. not a jumper I'm not killing myself- get that straight Just explaining today's living debate I hate the fact I suck at school No discipline in me for easy rules 'Do the work, earn good grades' I failed to do so; a whole year fades My freshman year; man I $*#%ed up Too much partying, boys and stuff Taken for granted just how hard Barely passing for my report card I ruled today I just must live My life, to the fullest, and to give Back to all who help me to stay Family, friends, defining me to claim nay. Nay, I will never end early my years Selfish would it be; no other word more clear For people who care and have to deal If I were gone; their lifelong empty feel Not being conceded; I'm not all that I just couldn't ever leave someone like that Abandonment, giving up, not me I'll fight this challenge to get off AP* Staying in school's now my number one Everything comes second; last listed is 'Fun' Focus on completing the work I need Will help me cope with getting degree'd From this message, please take away The thought to never check out early your stay Here on this earth, even when you're down Think of your loved ones who'll always want you around. *AP: Academic Probation- possibility of removal of university for poor grades