Inside Out

Crying on the inside when a smile's all you see I'm trying very hard but I just can't seem to be me Someone has taken over and controls my mind and thought And it seems that this intruder refuses to be fought Childish ambition mixed with envy mixed with greed And it seems we need denero in order to succeed And I'm just adding to the system I can't even help my mind I can only sit around here just wishing to rewind Go back before they took me, my emotions and my scenes Like something you could only see upon the silver screens I've become an actor trying to play myself I've become a worry wart about my mental health I wish that I could fight him and take him by surprise I wish that I could take my eyes to witness a sunrise I wish that I could see the beauty wish that I were me again I wish that I could take me back and my mind I could defend I know that I sound crazy, I've become okay with that I just wish that I could catch a break, seems I'm always up to bat And even if I get a hit there's no way I'll run the bases Because my mind is clouded, with a million different cases So I guess I should submit to this takeover of my soul I guess there is nothing I can do to try and slow your roll But I will try my hardest, I will not give up Because I know I can beat the world if I see a half-full cup