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      I am home ...

Oh, my heart ...
        pray, hush its cadence ...
            for the sacred sake of unsated thirst,
    beg its thrums be not now abounding ...

Each dream comes haunting, dusted in dusk ...
        every sentimental pluck of its syrupy strings,
            beckons you back to my yearnings, interminable ...
    every wistful pang is strummed by your affect on me.

This place, dipped in the dripping mist of morning,
        echoes things quite beyond my words ... of you -
            'tis no forte for flowery phrase can capture it,
    no poetic capacity worthy of its description.

It pulls and mills my spirit like the ebb of the briny blue,
        but to its most dark, stinging, brumal depths.
            You were such a visceral part of my fibre ...
    from the quintessence of deep, dreaming slumber,

To the first nascent meanderings of each wish-flavored morning,
        (Your sublime taste still seasoning my mouth ... and my mentalities).
            From the uncommon commonplace of teatime sun in your tresses,
    to the chipped-edge porcelain puddles of the mocking moon,

Cackling at my fevered foolishness for its glint in your eyes,
        or for your skin, when you'd dip your toes in pale pools of twilight.
            My core breathed you like youth breathes rebellion ...
    and the cells of you pressed on my emotions, infused my blood,

Coursing like the fire of a drug through my arteries.
        Never ... ne'er did I touch you ...
            but to write secret stories on your skin,
    fingertips spelling out sexy words in cursive ...

Or focusing the intent of my heart to a simple caress -
        a brush of your shoulder, a graze of your cheek,
            a stroke to put your hair gently behind your ear,
    a pillow-deep hug - full of warmth and security ...

A gentle pat of your knee ...
        or a grasp of your hand ... like heaven ...
            fingers married to the spaces between mine, like perfect dovetail.
    This place, to some, is just that - a place.

But it was OUR place, and it yet sighs of US,
        deeply, forlornly, achingly ...
            the wash of the waves is but the whisper of your name,
    the salt-sea fresh air aromas are your perfume ...

The feel of the cool sand under each footstep,
        is but a soft memory of the tender, tousled passion we shared,
            and this dark, brooding, breathy day,
    is the mist-daubed remnant of my heart ...

The melancholy that drips from my spirit to the well of days gone.
        I shall not come here again, though I love it so ...
            oh, how I adore this place and all it means!
    It is my home, as YOU will always be -

The lighted window at the end of weariness,
        the flaming hearth that kindles my marrow,
            the soft, sweet pillow that cradles my head at night.
    No, I MUST not return, or it will surely claim me ...

It will swallow me as time has swallowed you ...
        it will transform me into this damp, dour, graying caste,
            and I'll be lost to the wind and the dark and the ache,
    just as surely as you - my home - are lost ...

To me.





~ 1st Place ~  in the "Best Free Verse Poem October thru December 2017" Poetry Contest, John Hamilton, Judge & Sponsor.

~ 2nd Place ~  in the "Broken-Hearted Poems" Poetry Contest, Broken Wings, Judge & Sponsor.

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Date: 8/21/2019 12:18:00 PM
Hi Gregory; I read your beautiful poem until I sat in your poetic atmosphere. CONGRATULATIONS!
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Date: 8/21/2019 10:25:00 AM
I read this one again, (maybe for the tenth time) I remember saying this poem will win against any other poem, and that still stands as is evident in another win(I think the third win...so far) I'm dumbstruck by the beautiful sadness of this write. I NEVER tire of reading you G.
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Date: 8/20/2019 12:10:00 PM
A deserving First Placement for this gem that I loved so much Greg. Congratulations! : ) xxoo
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Date: 8/20/2019 10:19:00 AM
what an ending, great poem dear Gregory :) Thank you for your participation and congrats on your placement. I was honored to read your poem :)-luloo
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Date: 5/5/2018 10:34:00 PM
Back with more belated congrats on this additional win, Gregory.
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 5/6/2018 12:32:00 AM
Thank you, Line.
Date: 1/9/2018 4:29:00 PM
Greg, I was certain I commented on your poem, but don't see it here. This is a fantastic gem that left my mouth agape! It deserved its top placement! Congratulations! One of my favorite lines in your poem: "My core breathed her like youth breathes rebellion And the cells of her press on my emotions, infused my blood" Truly awesome! : )
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/10/2018 11:25:00 PM
Oh, what a wonderful comment, Connie - thank you SO much for the heart-felt and kind words! I thought you had commented on this one as well ... hmmm ... this is the fourth comment that has "disappeared" from my poems this week ... odd. I'm so pleased you enjoyed it, and that line especially! Blessings, my dear friend! :-) <3
Date: 1/9/2018 10:31:00 AM
congrats on your top placement with this amazing poem! ;)-luloo
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/10/2018 11:23:00 PM
That's very sweet, Luloo, and I so appreciate your comments and sincere praise - it means a great deal to me, my friend! :-) <3
Date: 1/7/2018 8:15:00 AM
DAMN THAT'S GOOD....and another thing....DAMN THAT'S GOOD. Left me sitting...just sitting...in its loneliness.
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/8/2018 3:17:00 PM
What a wonderful comment, John, and I so appreciate the kindness ... blessings, my friend! :-)
Date: 1/6/2018 6:22:00 PM
Congrats on your solid win, Gregory. Superbly done.
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/8/2018 3:17:00 PM
Many kind thanks to you, Line, I'm glad you liked it! Blessings! :-) <3
Date: 1/6/2018 4:35:00 PM
Congrats on your top win, Greg!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/8/2018 3:16:00 PM
Thank you very much, Vijay! :-)
Date: 1/6/2018 9:20:00 AM
I'm honored to have read this majestic poem, it flutters through the mind like fragile wings...congratulations dear poet
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/8/2018 3:16:00 PM
That's very kind of you, Frederic - thank you kindly, Brother! :-)
Date: 1/6/2018 8:36:00 AM
Outstanding writing Greg, you're smart in entering poems that you KNOW I love, this poem will continue winning WHATEVER it is matched against, in future contests, one of your best I think!Congrats on a stand alone first place!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 1/8/2018 3:15:00 PM
Thanks so much, John, I'm very honored and humbled to be on a list with such wonderful poets, and especially top spot! So pleased you enjoyed this one ... blessings to you, friend! :-)
Date: 10/26/2017 12:06:00 PM
Wow!! Congrats on your win! So many amazing lines in this write! What a way with words you have Gregory. I feel my heart swell with sadness and lonliness as I absorb each word. Who can't relate to this longing of someone loved and lost. This is absolute, poetic brilliance! Judy
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Date: 10/27/2017 12:36:00 AM
I am so incredibly pleased that this piece touched your heart in such a way, Judith - this kind of wonderful comment makes the time and energy spent all worthwhile. I am so blessed to have so many wonderful and kind friends here at PS, and such amazing writers as you that fine my work as something positive ... many kind thanks and blessings to you, my friend! :-) <3
Date: 10/18/2017 1:33:00 PM
Congrats!!! my friend on # 2...no # 1 lol...what happened...should have been # 1, in my book...you are a beautiful poetic work of art Greg...god bless...^WW^
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/18/2017 5:30:00 PM
You are very kind, my friend, and I SO appreciate your wonderful comment ... you're pretty special yourself, W2, and such a wonderful poet! Blessings! :-)
Date: 10/18/2017 1:19:00 PM
An excellent poem built on strong emotions and poetry techniques, Gregory. Admittedly I am not a fan of long poems, but this one sure is a pleasant exception! Congratulations on a very deserved win. Regards // paul
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Paul Callus
Date: 10/19/2017 10:48:00 AM
I will undoubtedly visit again, Gregory :) I appreciate your writing skills. Best regards, my friend. // paul
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/18/2017 5:28:00 PM
Thank you again for taking time to read this one as it is very special to me ... I am committed to writing some shorter poems, so please visit my page again, my friend! Blessings!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/18/2017 5:14:00 PM
Thank you so much, Paul, and I appreciate you venturing into the world of long poetry for my sake ... I am well-aware that many people skip over my poetry list because I write mostly poems that are over ten lines, and while I do enjoy writing shorter forms, I find substance preferable over economy, and enjoy getting into the "meat" of the subject. I keep trying to write more shorter pieces, and they keep stretching beyond, lol - I'll get there eventually ... I hope! ;-)
Date: 10/18/2017 8:51:00 AM
Gregory, you have captured the essence of true heartache and pain in your amazing, well-written poem. Congratulations on your fine win. Sandra
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/18/2017 5:10:00 PM
Thank you so very much, Sandra, that's very kind of you! Blessings! :-)
Date: 10/17/2017 7:42:00 AM
Congratulations on your well deserved win with this amazing piece of poetry Gregory, so sad but beautifully written.
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/17/2017 9:12:00 PM
Blessings and thanks to you, Roy - I'm glad you liked it!
Date: 10/16/2017 9:14:00 PM
Very heartfelt write, Gregory, congratulations on your win
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/17/2017 9:11:00 PM
Thank you so much, Eve - I'm pleased you liked it! :-) <3
Date: 10/16/2017 5:56:00 PM
I could feel the heartache and pain in your words. I know these feelings all too well. Congratulations on your placement in the contest! Beautifully written, Greg!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/16/2017 7:53:00 PM
Thank you SO very much, Julie, I greatly appreciate your kind words, and I'm so happy you liked this one ... maybe that's why we "sensitive" people go through so much, heartache, so we can write about it, and put to words what others feel but CAN'T write ... at least I tell myself that, lol ... it helps rationalize the pain. Blessings, my friend!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/16/2017 7:53:00 PM
(I like that you added your middle name - I'm using a longer moniker now as well - but you can still call me Greg!). :-) <3
Date: 10/16/2017 5:25:00 PM
Wow! Gregory, you captured the feelings and torment of a tortured soul. Congratulations on your placement in the "Broken Hearted Poem contest ". It was well deserved- Alexis
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/16/2017 7:48:00 PM
Oh - that's very sweet of you, Alexis, and such a nice comment - thank you very much, my friend, I'm pleased that you liked it - blessings! :-)
Date: 10/13/2017 11:55:00 PM
I was thinking of entering this contest...but I think we all know this is the winner, so I'll wait for a contest you don't enter so I have a chance lol!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/16/2017 7:47:00 PM
Thanks so much, John, I really appreciate that, my friend!
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John Hamilton
Date: 10/16/2017 4:01:00 PM
Congrats on a great 2nd place,I would have placed this higher but as you say according to each sponsors personal taste they choose the winners!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/14/2017 4:35:00 AM
Oh, don't do that, John, as you know, it's all about personal preference, and not everyone enjoys my writing as much as you do, (though I wish that were true), and you are a superb writer yourself, with wonderful work that needs to be seen and read, and the more contests you enter, the more people will see your great work! Come on, man, jump in the fire - you're GREAT! :-)
Date: 10/11/2017 11:41:00 AM
Nascent meanderings of each wish flavored morning, chipped edge porcelain puddles of the mocking moon, I could go on and on, this is spectacular writing Greg, there's something special about melancholy writes that are so appealing, I've gotta fave this one!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/12/2017 11:48:00 AM
Thank you so, so much, John, I am rather especially proud of this one ... I was in "the groove" that day, I guess, lol. As you know, I believe we are just tools that God uses to bring creativity to words and that most of it comes from without ... I also believe that some days our spirits and minds are more in tune with that spirit than on other days, so I am thankful and humbled when it comes through in a good way.
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/12/2017 11:48:00 AM
I, too, find the melancholy my favorites - love is ALSO about pain, always, so I feel we need to embrace BOTH! Blessings, brother!
Date: 10/6/2017 7:21:00 AM
Wow...wow, this is such a deep and dark write my friend! I understand this poem completely as I've been there before too! It feels as if the world is turned upside down and that time has stopped and everything hurts, badly! But eventually you will come out of this a stronger man, and things will get better, and someday you will look back upon these days and tremble, but you will stand tall...above this...and you will be able to find something positive that came out of it! Great Work my friend!!
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/6/2017 10:20:00 PM
Thank you so much, Russell, you are such a good and kind friend! I'm really pleased that you enjoyed this, but sorry that you have felt that pain ... I think it all makes us stronger, though, good AND bad, and I'm sure there is a reason - a positive reason - for everything that happens to us, so I try to be thankful ... always. Blessings, my dear friend! :-)
Date: 10/5/2017 10:05:00 AM
You are you... you won'rt disappear just like that, not as long as you write these wonderful dark poems for us. Wow.... love this stanza: "Coursing like the fire of a drug through my arteries.// Never ... ne'er did I touch her // But to write secret stories on her skin // Fingertips spelling out sexy words in cursive" Beautiful, dear friend <3
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Gregory R Barden
Date: 10/6/2017 10:18:00 PM
Thank you, my good friend, I'm pleased you enjoyed this one, (it was a cathartic one!) ... a lot of emotion into this, and while EVERYthing we write is a piece of us, (especially poems), some are more a part of us than others, and this one required a big chunk. Blessings, Buddy! :-)