For You.

world, look out for me... because i seem to destroy everything in my path. in other words, all good things are destroyed by my wrath. i cant do anything right, or is it that i wont let the right happen ? ... or is it my evil conscience ? because that devil stays rappin'. now, i dont believe in god... but im still ashamed of my sins. right or wrong, this life i cannot win. does heaven have its guards up on me ? because im feeling the heat more and more. so heaven, open your doors. im not good at expressing how i feel, but oh, this is just unbearable. take the weight of this world off my shoulders... because im only one deep. and im thinking that he wants pain in this world's keep. and if so, then i dont think i could handle it. or maybe i could... because i cant differenciate between pain and whats really good. and you didnt make it easier on me... because you done took my breath away. please give it back... because i cant do without it, and youre not here to breathe for me anymore. but are you kidding me ? please tell me my eyes are deceiving me. all this work for her... when did this transition occur ? and what hurts the most is the feeling of wanting what i cant have... i want you, but cant have it. its like you took my only option away when you chose to stop chasing for 'we...' and i cant keep running if theres no one behind me. i live by my promises, but i guess you dont. so whats trust ? because its no longer in my lexicon. all i had believed in had up'd and gone. and the amount of love i had in my system has been withdrawn.