End of Day
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Here it comes ... again,
The moment I dread each day ...
Those three words
That I never dreamed
Would take on such meaning.
Why don't you just grace me
With your silence?
The silence I've heard my whole life,
The silence that you screamed at me
From your indifference ...
Pitched with resentment,
A resentment that I didn't even create,
But took on for the sake of another ...
The one who SHOULD have heard it,
(But dysfunction ruled in its stead).
I'd rather that silence ANY day
Than to hear THIS:
"I love you" ... I love you,
Said from expectations,
Said from obligations,
Or fear that another might object
To the double-standard if you passed.
I hear it catch in your throat each time,
And its sound creeps away (swiftly) with the hope
That your god didn't hear the lie ...
That HE won't call you on it,
Or the lifetime of avoidance and neglect
That created this late-life liability.
Oh, how you cursed yourself now ...
Cursed yourself to place
This poison on your tongue
At the close of each day ...
Poison that eats away at the fabric
Of your honesty, so greatly prized.
I sometimes imagine your fingers crossed
Behind your back like a child's,
So that precious integral character
Won't be tarnished with the reality
Of what those three words REALLY mean,
Those three others of the same number,
The ones you WANT to say,
(And the ones I really hear)
The ones that you could support
And speak with confidence and truth,
Conviction and emotion and heart,
But never WILL ...
"I hate you".
I'd respect that, at least.
And you'd be FREE.
Copyright © Gregory Richard Barden | Year Posted 2016
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