Desperation

I was working that day, when they came to say, you better get there fast they don't expect him to last. I couldn't breathe , I couldn't see, please don't let this be happening to me. God please don't let him go I love him so! I couldn't sit, I couldn't stand please let me just make it to hold his hand! I'm shaking I'm crying, some one has to be lying, please tell me theres no way he can be dying! I'm pleading, I'm beggingdon't take him to heaven. I want to holler I want to shout all you doctors just get out! Theres been a mistake, this must be fake please let him be awake. This is insane this is crazy why does he keep putting us threw this hell? First it was mom then it was Paul now, how dare he pick you to call! does he know can he see this isn't where you want to be and that you really are ready to leave/ some body please tell me this is make believe. Someone do something, do anything i can't take it, I'm screaming I'm shouting I can't take this pounding. My heart is aching I swear it is litterally breaking! This can't happen, it can't end this way, there is still to much to say. I love you I need you please don't leave me! don't go away I need you to stay! please just one more day? I'm so desperate I got to scream I got to yell why couldn't you just get wel, but all I can manage is I love you and hope you have found your place with mom and paul in heaven now