Despair In Love,Love In Despair

Why do i find solace in my loneliness But find sorrow with those wit whom i share the same blood Why do i hide behind these fake smiles of happiness When this sorrow and unrest washes over my soul like a flood Its pathetic how i'm laughing on the outside Laughing at how everyting is all right While i'm crying and dying on the inside Not wanting anyone to see my sad sad plight Why is it that i continuosly distance myself from those who are or try to get close I see love as nothing more than a drug that people are addicted to the point of overdose I am one who finds solace in despair in sorrow,in sadness,in darkness I am one who feels pain in love I see it as evil like a vulture,instead of pure like a dove Love can build,but it can also destroy It takes away everything,all of the joy Despair may seem like incarnated bitterness But its there to comfort in the face of loneliness I find myself wishing for the company of the feeling of melancoly Its as if i can't function without it Like a flower without an ounce of water Could this feeling be,truly be love I see that in the end,that i find myself in a paradox A large cell with many locks Two sides of the same coin Love and Despair,Despair and Love Despair in Love,Love in Despair I can't make it disappear Don't want to make it disappear