Confused Pt1-2

Confused Unusually perplexed like an origami Why is life constantly so hard for me Turn off the sun I’ll still shine But I can’t seem to get that in my mind Not even with you eyes open wide Could you see my pain inside I am that son who hasn’t won Im the one who gets the job done Impatient but truly God fearing Trustworthy but had of hearing I’m like a fly caught in a web I’m like a teacher who can’t spell I’m like a hiker who doesn’t hike I’m like a pedal without a bike I am that tree with good roots I am durable like brand new boots I am likeable and intriguing I am honest and believing When one door slams another will open I answered the knock it went to be unspoken I have used and be misused I love her and he loves her and she loves him Oh now I am really Confused Like a twig on the shoulders of a might stream The world around me is not as it seems Cluttered thoughts like a bag of fog Stripped of faith like a slaughtered hog My agony hurts like salt to an open wound My mind wanders like a fly in a crowded room I am that dream as well as that nightmare The one to hate but also the one to care I am handsome and yet ugly inside I can be that calm river or that rushing tide Like a stone tossed i9nto a smooth lake Don’t want to try because I might lose Don’t’ know which way to choose That’s why I am so confused All my inner motives have no depth at all Was on my feet at times but back down to a crawl What does it take to start anew To rid myself of these wordly blues Am I me or am I blind and can’t see Are you really there or is it a fantasy These things often enter into my thoughts By our minds being battlegrounds for struggles fought We wish we may and we wish we might What really is day and really is night I stand on top of the world I am rubbish like a tarnished pearl I have paid all my dues Maybe I didn’t though that’s why I continue to be confused.