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This is a continuation of posting parts of my Bio on which my sonnets are based on.

This chapter is a part of a series of 4 chapters which I will post as a sequence. They take me back to 1975. They all relate to the same story, so I hope that you will have the interest to read all four, as it is the last two chapters which bring the story together.

The sonnet relating to this chapter has not been posted on PS previously, so I‘m posting it separately for those who wish to read poems only.

The photo is from 1974, when I was 18 years of age.

January 1975, Mount Druitt, Sydney, Australia

At the end of 1974 high school was over, and it was time to start a new phase in life. Whether it would be a continuation of studies at University, or starting a working career would depend on the results of the Higher School Certificate. Whatever the case, finishing high school closed a chapter in my life. Carlingford high school had been a good experience for me.

At the start of the new year, I had everything going for me, except for that one thing that was nagging away at me: a deep, meaningful relationship. I was now eighteen years of age, turning nineteen in Febru-ary and I had not been kissed by a girl, or kissed a girl, since I was thirteen when I kissed with Linda. For many years I had been carrying the yearning for love: to hold someone lovingly in my arms, to caress and fondle a loved one. Looking back, I had lost my teenage years. The young love of a teenager could not be recovered. I had not experienced teenage love except in its negative form of rejection. I was total-ly naïve when it came to matters of the heart and sexuality. I had not received the education or the expe-rience received by most teenagers.

I had started work at the Penrith branch office of the Bank of New South Wales before Christmas. The banks were always looking for new young employees and for those who had completed their higher school certificate it was easy to get employed. It didn’t pay a lot, but it was a job that brought some in-come for the time being. The work was quite easy and the workmates were nice. The Penrith branch had near enough ten employees working under the supervision of the manager and the accountant who were the bosses. I was quite quick to learn whatever task I was given to do.

I had an interesting and flattering instance one day when we were having lunch in the room upstairs at the bank. One of my workmates at the bank was a young married woman perhaps a few years older than me. She started asking why I don’t have a girlfriend. She made positive comments on my looks and then continued the flattery by saying that if she wasn’t married she’d go for me. These kinds of positive comments had been long time coming. I realized that it was only a compliment and the intention was not for it to lead anywhere. It didn’t. I took the compliment at its true value. Perhaps there was still hope for me.

The job at the bank was something I wanted to do whilst waiting for the results to whether I’d be accepted to University. I had applied to a course in architecture in all the Universities that it was studied in. The first two options were a full-time four year course at Sydney University and University of New South Wales. The third option was a full-time course at the Sydney Institute of Technology and the fourth option was a part-time course over six years at the University of New South Wales.

I hadn’t applied for any other courses than the architectural courses available, so if I didn’t get accepted it would change my future plans completely, and I would need to consider making a career in banking. I received the results in middle of January and I was accepted on the part-time course at the University of New South Wales. Six years seemed a long time to study until I would graduate, but I was happy that I was able to scrape in.

At the bank they were preparing me to work as a teller. The next day after I had received notice of my acceptance to Uni, I notified the accountant and the manager at the bank that I would be leaving at the middle of February as I was accepted into University. They were very upset and said that didn’t I say at the interview that I wasn’t looking at continuing my studies. They were very disappointed and said that I could leave straight away. In essence they dismissed me on the spot. Losing the job immediately wasn’t such a big deal for me. It would’ve been nice to earn some money, but I was already looking forward to starting my archi-tecture studies, and it would be nice to have a few weeks’ break before the first semester began.

At the end of February I started studies at the University of New South Wales in Kensington. Because the course was a part-time course over six years, I had lectures only on two days of the week: on Tuesdays from 11 am to 9 pm and on Thursdays from 2 pm to 9 pm. By no means was the course easy, but I settled into studying quite well. We had a lot of exercises to do, so most of the other days I would work on them at home. Uni was different to high school. We had the freedom to attend lectures or not attend them, but if you started skipping too many classes you would quickly fall behind.

The University campus area was huge covering thirty-eight hectares of land and consisting of over sixty faculty buildings as well as open park areas. It took roughly fifteen minutes to walk from one extreme to the other. The University was one of the top Universities in Australia and the academic achievements there were well respected. The University was established in 1949 and had expanded rapidly to over twenty thousand students by the mid-seventies.

I was a Uni student at the University of New South Wales. How cool was that? I was proud of my achievement and I had everything set for me and life was going according to my dreams. Except that I was alone without a girlfriend. But I was confident that happiness would come my way soon. After all I was a pretty could catch for any girl: I was okay looking, I was smart, I was athletic, I was going to have a respected professional career, I had deep feelings, I wanted to be married and have a family. What more would a girl want? I dreamt my lifelong dream of a meaningful relationship, the ensuing bliss and happiness that would lead to marriage and children.

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Date: 7/25/2018 1:38:00 PM
Thank God, "dreaming is free" and when we are young everything we do is in pursuit of a dream(s). Your bio here is so very relateable. Our dreams of accomplishment are very doable but dreams of love just happen. IMO we cannot pursue love. We have to let Love pursue us...in its own time. When we are ready it will come.
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Date: 7/26/2018 1:06:00 PM
Thank you very much, Carole. You are so right, we cannot pursue love, we have to let love pursue us. That's where I went wrong and once I stopped pursuing love, it came to me. PS I've been happily in a relationship with my wife for 27 years now. T.J
Date: 5/19/2016 8:31:00 PM
you were such a cutie at that age!! guess what? I graduated one year before you!!! But I was youngest in my class. I am guessing we are both about 60! I can't believe I forgot to go back and finish your story. Let me see if there remains only one more part or if there is even more. (I am nearly half Scotch/WElsh. it's so cool to meet people here who share some of my ancestry.
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Date: 6/2/2016 1:51:00 PM
Sorry I saw your comment only now. I turned 60 at the end of February. Thank you very much for reading my bio. T.J
Date: 4/27/2016 1:31:00 PM
You seem to be heading in a positive direction TJ
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Date: 4/27/2016 11:37:00 PM
Life is full of ups and downs, but in the end, love will reign. Thank you for your support, Tim. T.J
Date: 4/27/2016 9:27:00 AM
I love the way you can talk about yourself..Definitely it helps many to open up about themselves too.I see a smart , determined young guy in this chapter..with a future to follow.What happens next? Let me see : )
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Date: 4/27/2016 11:36:00 PM
Thank you so much for your lovely comments, Charmaine. With determination you can reach noble ends (eventually). T.J
Date: 4/26/2016 2:27:00 AM
It is nice to so a little confidence in this one TJ, looking forward to reading more soon!
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Date: 4/26/2016 11:19:00 AM
Thank you very much, Brian. Part three will build up to the crunch. T.J
Date: 4/25/2016 7:45:00 PM
Thank you for sharing your life story with us, Teppo. It is so nice to know more about you and the ups and downs which made you who you are. Your poems and Sonnets are beautifully written and tell much about the fine person you are. Thank you for being so supportive to me and everyone here at PS. Looking forward to reading more of your poetry. Sandra
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Date: 4/26/2016 11:17:00 AM
Thank you so much for your kind comments, Sandra. It means a lot to me. T.J
Date: 4/25/2016 6:19:00 PM
TJ, how wonderful to read and have some insight into your past and where you started and came from. This bio is a wonderful idea and I am looking forward to the rest of them. You are such a GREAT supporter here at PS and its so nice to get to know you a little better. So much love and emotion in your heart and it glows daily reading your lovely and kind comments to everyone here. You are a blessed man who deserves all the happiness life has to offer..have a blessed night! looking forward! -luloo
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Date: 4/26/2016 11:16:00 AM
Thank you very much for your kind words, Luloo. I hope you will bear with me and read all four parts of this section of the Bio. T.J
Date: 4/25/2016 2:06:00 PM
Every life has a story and for you to share your life like this is a testimony to your heart Sir!
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Date: 4/26/2016 11:11:00 AM
Thank you very much, Walter. I hope you will have the interest to read the other three parts as well. T.J