An Inner Knowing, An Absolute Feeling, My Mystical Soul, Self

My words come from an innermost and secret place within me. Hidden feelings that I have veiled and concealed over the years. Words that bleed with emotion and speak of deep-seated pain and weep with tears. They spill onto my white pages. All those inward words that I have held for years come dripping. And I know that I have mastered my writing, I know my poetry is meaningful. I realize that some may not like my words but it means nothing to me. For my poetry is not measured by others or by being acknowledge somehow but by the words that take my breath away. I have that kind of wonderful inner knowing. sad words are falling all the red orange and brown- a feather floats by I am absolute and certain that I am meant to write pain and definite death, and my aboriginal heritage with boundless and unrestrained passion. I give totally to this path. I am fixed and clear and infallible. Seems I am on a mission to utterly enlighten others. And when you read my words you will feel my compassion and empathy, my love, sorrow and affection. You will glimpse and get an inkling of my journey to the here and now, the rocky road that I have traveled. But, that road has left me with feelings of absolute beauty, so I write poems beautifully sad. and hidden birds sing a song so melancholy- calico cat stares I feel we writers have to be mystical and in touch with our mysterious spirits, there is a magic when you can connect with that otherworldly place deep inside of your mind. Some may call this connection their spirit or their muse, or their soul but when you find it, you will know and it is from that place you write. For inside of self is your ego, your I and yourself. It is your essence and vital force, it is your poetic heartbeat, it is where your mournful dwells and your memories linger to be retold, for me it is my vitality and my journey that I share, and it is where I keep my HURT. the rain is falling as I stand beneath the tree- my tears fly away ___________________________ June 9, 2018 Written for the contest, An Inner Knowing, And Absolute Feeling, My Mystical Soul/Self sponsor, Caren Krutsinger First Place