Am I To Angry To Be Happy

Sometimes the rage is to much to take The anger dictates the direction these words fly Lost i seem in some type of jealous pain It drives to hate with no explanation I try not to fill my head with such insecurities My world revolves around this unspeakable desire To cause hurt to make up for the pain i have felt so long I try to speak i try to make sense but judgement clouded by things before. Cant let go of my past Cant march to a future of happiness The present is everyone's fault but my own. How does one get past what seems to always be the familiar? Ever cause has a reaction but is that reaction an over reaction. Is fear my hidden demon that i always bury I cant comprehend all this negative energy That attracts me to it Am i really to angry to be happy?