Almost Hating You, If I Had the Energy

tonite i told you that forever is gone that i don't want you no more..... how i think it is manical that you cannot see, or say that anyway, where you have done me wrong you only can tell me over the phone, that you don't want me any more; you said it first like i did something bad by wanting a real home why not said i, what is bad about that? you said why not let us go just like we are ? what is wrong about that? i am so done with you you have dragged me thru the dirt long enough with you chilling lies now i have to go thru a life threating operation in a week and i thought you would be waiting for me. i am so sorry i have wasted 20 years of my life on you..... if i could hate i almost could hate you. jan