My Soul Deceived Me

My soul deceived me too long It had tricked me Told me I lacked feeling That love is a River A day always longed for in the distance? My soul deceived me when it poured What lives in the mind of the great mind It took away what I desire I lost years of my life? The years that need Love....? But it fed them silence and asceticism The self deceived me It's surpassed my heart And what adorns my chest now Is just only dust From the ashes of my life.. What remains from the ashes of my life Is nothing but futility Sunk in the cavities of the Earth And beyond the river I looked for the warmth of the sun For the blossom of the dream That never faded My soul deceived me too long When it told me that I got all the verses right And that the nights would never fold And that love is eternal And that its waves long to reach The sky and the hills The soul deceived me Oh how I was deceived When it pleased others With a happy ending With kindness and serenity But fed my heart embitterment Filled my horizon With an array of distempers My soul deceived me Reassured me with peace To walk the whole path Of thorns but never roses Even if they bloomed In the sun shades My soul deceived me Ah woe unto me Even a friend could not accompany me It did not love me as it loved others Or show me beauty My soul denied me Do I have the right of the air and love My soul deceived me Its gave me all these things I tried desperately to prevent And formed me with as much as it could With all folly of illusions and fantasy It never saved me Never saved me From shackles and distress