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 I have been a member of Poetry soup since 2011. 


Though my forte is fiction, verse has always appealed to me. There is nothing like a play of words to rattle the ordinary, to tickle away the dust of stagnation. My favourite form is the contemporary sonnet, but I also enjoy free verse. Also, I love the zen experience of haiku, its seizure of a moment, how it can hold a universe in so few syllables. And I admit to a fondness for the Rondeau.




My life is simple, but busy. I’m a writer and stay at home mother. Days are full. 


Currently, I am working on a novel or ... ha ha... should I really say that the novel is working on me? Characters! They have a way of turning a world upside down.


There are some amazing poets on the soup. I am blessed to call many my friends ~~ Cyndi




 

Most Recent Blog Post


A BLOG FOR THOSE HAVING A BLUE CHRISTMAS, SONGS FOR YOU
Blog Posted:12/10/2012 9:25:00 AM

 


Eight years ago, I spent December in palliative care, caring for my father, spending the final weeks with him. I did not leave his ward. I stayed right beside him. Gave myself sponge baths in his bathroom, slept on a pallet on his floor.

This is, believe it or not, a sweet memory for me. It was a time I cherish. The talks we had, the physical care I gave my dad, that last dance... I would not change a SECOND. He was in very little pain. I only regret that I could not fly to Montreal and get him the ribs and steak he so wanted from a restaurant that burnt down a decade earlier.

I would often look out his hospital window, the ledge made a makeshift window seat. And I'd watch the falling snow reflect light as he slept.

He died in my arms on Christmas Eve. The silly dreamer man who's favorite movie was the Santa Clause, who filled my Christmases with magic. The intelligent man who as an adult put himself through night school so as to provide a better life for his newborn daughter. The clown who'd make me laugh. The hero who could fix anything, or so I thought.

Christmas is special for me in a thousand ways. As a Christian, as a mother to a child who I'm blessed to have, as a wife to a wonderful man and as a daughter to a man who smiled as he took his last breath, the last breath that fanned my face.

I know that Christmas is special, JOY-FILLED, for so many. But others are struggling with loneliness, heartache, emotional, physical and spiritual pain.


This is a blog for you.

Here are some songs that helped me in the week following my father's death.

I played them over and over.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkiP7y0fauk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60bNzi9dA9U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiYYWDSI_oU

May you have a support system around you at this time. Those on the Soup send you prayers and/or you are in their thoughts.

I DO hope you "make it through December."  It will get better. Hang on!

Hugs sent to you during this time, when all the laughter, glitter and music seems to mock and causes pain....

xox
Cyndi
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  1. Date: 12/11/2012 1:06:00 AM
    Rose is right Cyndi, you are an exceptionally beautiful hearted woman, your Dad would be proud of the specialness you impart on others and how graceful you are with the love you share.. p.s sorry for the mistakes im writing through tears.. Merry Christmas angel.. xxxxxxx

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 9:02:00 PM
    This is heartbreaking, Cyndi. You made me cry.

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:28:00 PM
    love you, Love You, LOVE YOU!!!!

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:04:00 PM
    Has anyone told you lately how exceptional you are, if they haven't well there you have it, you rock from here to the stars above, Merry Christmas My Dear Woman, xxx Rose

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 2:36:00 PM
    oh cyndi, this is such a touching blog, now I understand more about why my poem 'moonlight on the ward' affected you...december is bittersweet for me too, it was just before christmas when I had a miscarriage and I know what you mean when you say about the laughter, glitter and music seeming to mock...hugs to you, too xx

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My Past Blog Posts

 
HELPLESS, A KYRIELLE. NEW CONTEST WITH TIM RYERSON AS CO PILOT! WAHOO!
Date Posted: 4/14/2014 9:24:00 PM
ROLL CALL.... HERE, KINDA HERE, NEVER HERE, LEAVING HERE, RETURNING HERE?
Date Posted: 4/14/2014 6:16:00 PM
LIKE THE BEATLES SAID, LET IT BE... A NICE QUOTE I FOUND
Date Posted: 4/14/2014 9:00:00 AM
ROBERT KEIM, BLITZ INVENTOR, LEFT COMMENTS ON SOUP! Please read what positive energy can do...
Date Posted: 4/7/2014 10:11:00 AM
WE STAND WITH YOU, A RONDEAU FOR FLO AND ILYEZA, PLEASE STAY
Date Posted: 4/6/2014 7:48:00 PM
PHOTOS TO INSPIRE HAIKU.. Haiku prompt
Date Posted: 4/5/2014 10:43:00 PM
GINGHAM AND LACE, ANOTHER BLITZ... GUYS TRY THIS FORM. IT IS FUN AND FAST
Date Posted: 4/4/2014 9:32:00 PM
NUDE, THIRTY DOLLARS, A BLITZ ... THANK YOU TO VICKI.. COOL FORM!
Date Posted: 4/4/2014 4:26:00 PM
A CLOSER LOOK AT FOUND POETRY, How to collage a poem and a sad tribute
Date Posted: 3/27/2014 9:09:00 PM
HOW I SEE FLO AND HER GUY... FUNNY!
Date Posted: 3/14/2014 5:28:00 PM
YURT CAMPING
Date Posted: 3/14/2014 7:46:00 AM
A THANK YOU CARD FOR OUR ANGEL, GAIL. PLEASE SIGN!
Date Posted: 3/11/2014 5:05:00 PM
DANE ANN, CRAIG AND NETTE... AND SOUPERS...LOOKIE LOOKIE...
Date Posted: 3/10/2014 8:35:00 PM
HOW TO WRITE DIALOGUE: BEATS, TAGS, POINTERS FOR STORYTELLERS
Date Posted: 3/6/2014 10:20:00 PM
I DARE YOU TO READ THIS, POETS. IT MAY MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE. GOOD.
Date Posted: 3/4/2014 9:29:00 PM
STEPHANIE DESHPANDE WINNERS-- HER BLOG IS UP -- THIS IS AWESOME
Date Posted: 2/26/2014 8:29:00 PM
ZOE THE CLOWN, FOR FLO, PICTURES, and a CUTE CLOWN
Date Posted: 2/24/2014 5:40:00 PM
MY NEW FOCUS, MY NEW TOY: SCRIVENER. I AM HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE!
Date Posted: 2/24/2014 12:54:00 PM
WERE ANY OF YOU 12- 17 in 1954? WOULD YOU BE AVAILABLE FOR OCCASIONAL QUESTIONS?
Date Posted: 2/19/2014 9:28:00 AM
BALLET AND SENSEI... PROUD MOM BLOG WITH PICTURES ...
Date Posted: 2/15/2014 5:42:00 AM
AN EXAMPLE FOR MY MOV(I)E ME WITH A CROWN CONTEST. PHOTOS, NOTES, HELPFUL HINTS
Date Posted: 2/13/2014 10:22:00 PM
HOW A CROWN CAN BE WRITTEN. YOU'RE GONNA LIKE THIS! NOT MINE!
Date Posted: 2/12/2014 9:55:00 AM
WINNERS OF THE STEPHANIE DESHPANDE / CONTEMPORARY FREE RHYME
Date Posted: 2/10/2014 9:47:00 PM
WHY ARE MY POEMS STILL ON SISTER SITES THOUGH I OPTED OUT?
Date Posted: 2/10/2014 6:07:00 PM
GUILTY PLEASURES....A WEEKEND BLOG.... SHOW ME YOURS AND I'LL SHOW YOU MINE
Date Posted: 2/8/2014 7:25:00 AM

My Poems

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Date PostedPoem TitleFormCategories
4/8/2014BUKOWSKI CONTESTFree versemoving on,power,teenage,
4/4/2014GINGHAM AND LACE, A BLITZ POEMVersedaughter,love,
4/4/2014NUDE, THIRTY DOLLARS, A BLITZVerseart,imagination,lost love
3/24/201450 GODSFree versegod,peace,philosophy,
3/15/2014WINTER IN PORTLANDFree versedepression,winter,
3/11/2014FREEDOM BLUESTail-rhymefreedom,
2/28/2014WELCOME TO THE BLUENOSEAcrosticfish,history,journey,sea,
2/25/2014PITY THE PIRANHAFree verseintrospection,people,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY, LINDA MARIE, EASTER WALK, 7th REPOSTRhymefamily,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY 6- DEDICATED TO LINDA MARIE, REPOSTRondeaufaith,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY 5 - FAMILY TREE, REPOST FOR LINDA MARIEVersefamily,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY 4- A REPOST DEDICATED TO LINDA MARIERhymefaith,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY 3- EASTER LILY, A REPOST FOR LINDA MARIEVerseeaster,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY 2-- A REPOST AND TRIBUTE TO LINDA MARIESestinaheaven,
2/15/2014HAPPY FAMILY DAY-- A REPOST FOR LINDA MARIE- WE MISS YOUVersefaith,
2/13/2014DOUBLE OH, A BOND CROWN, EXAMPLE FOR CONTESTCrown of Sonnetsfilm,sexy,
2/13/2014DOUBLE OH, A JAMES BOND CROWN OF SONNETS - 6 down 1 to go- SAMPLE FOR CONTESTCrown of Sonnetsadventure,film,sexy,
2/11/2014ORION: A PERSPECTIVE for third to tenthSonnetmythology,star,
2/10/2014TARTANS, A SONNET FOR FRANCINESonnetfriend,patriotic,places,p
2/9/2014TESTIMONIALS, A SONNET FOR BRIANSonnetfaith,friend,nature,
2/7/2014Double Oh-- A JAMES BOND CROWN, BUILDING IT UP SECOND SONNET POSTED--Crown of Sonnetsgames,passion,
2/5/2014ON THE FRINGE, A SONNET FOR MARLONSonnetafrica,allegory,culture,f
2/4/2014FOR CALEB'S CROWN - ORIONSonnetstars,
2/3/2014SUMMERLAND, A SONNET FOR CARRIE RICHARDSSonnetfriend,music,places,poetr
2/2/2014WORD ON THE STREET, 2009, A SONNET FOR DAVIDSonnetbooks,friend,places,poetr
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My Photos


Fav Poems

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Poem TitleFormCategories
The Sowing Free versedevotion,
Ten Little ToesRhymedaughter,lifeold,old,,gra
Woodland RhapsodyQuatraininspirational
Contradicting KeatsSonnetintrospection,life
Surrender to LoveRhymeloveme,
A Totum Pole OdeConcretenative american,people,
MORE DREAMS TO ROWRhyme royalinspirational,life,
When the Tab Comes DueFree verseinspirational,introspecti
Lighting My Candle From WithinQuintain (English)caregiving,introspection,
The Kirk by the SeaCoupletnostalgia,religion,love,
Moonlight On The WardChokahealth,life,
Nocturnal PoetryRhymeimagination,life,poetry,
SlumberEpicdedication,epic,slam,
FROSTY NIGHT STROLLCoupletinspirational,seasons,
Our ThanksgivingLight Poetryholiday,
Tomorrow's GraceEthereepeace,
A New Star Shines Above HawaiiRhymededication,music,
Jesus, Our SaviorShapereligion,life,
Monarch of SummerHaibunanimals,devotion,inspirat
UntouchedRhymeforgiveness,me,me,
Midnight PearlsThan-Baukintrospection,love,
Beaucoup BloomsTerza Rimanature,spring,spring,
On Heaven's DoorwayNarrativeinspirational,life,care,c
WALKING ON FAITHVersefaith,for children,
BeachworldFree verseplaces,sea,sun,
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Fav Poets

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Debbie Guzzi United States Flag United States Read
Caryl Muzzey United States Flag United States Read
Andrea Dietrich United States Flag United States Read
Joe Flach United States Flag United States Read
nette onclaud Philippines Flag Philippines Read
Drake Eszes United States Flag United States Read
Mystic Rose Canada Flag Canada Read
mourning mist France Flag France Read
elizabeth wesley Canada Flag Canada Read
Rhonda Johnson-Saunders United States Flag United States Read
Ruben O. Argentina Flag Argentina Read
Carrie Richards United States Flag United States Read
kathryn collins United States Flag United States Read
Scribe ML United States Flag United States Read
Catie Lindsey United States Flag United States Read
craig cornish United States Flag United States Read
David Williams United Kingdom Flag United Kingdom Read
Rebecca L. United States Flag United States Read
Charmaine Chircop Malta Flag Malta Read
Francine Roberts Canada Flag Canada Read
Eileen Ghali Lebanon Flag Lebanon Read
Poet Destroyer A United States Flag United States Read
Faye Gibson United States Flag United States Read