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Cyndi MacMillan is a well-rounded writer who embraces many genres and forms. Her work has been published in local newspapers and has won contests. She enjoys reading literary journals, and she is actively pursuing publication within their glossy covers.

Verse is both magnetic and kinetic. She attempts - madly- to give equal attention to her poetry, short stories, and a novel-in-progress, the Trim of Wicks.  Regardless of genre, she focuses on language. One word has the power to repel or pull. She never forgets the reader and does her best to make their ride interesting.

Poetry soup is a good forum which enables people from around the world to share poetry. It has some great resources and provides a nice space for friends to meet.

Cyndi lives in a small town in Ontario with her husband, young daughter and far too many books.

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A BLOG FOR THOSE HAVING A BLUE CHRISTMAS, SONGS FOR YOU


Blog Posted:12/10/2012 9:25:00 AM

Eight years ago, I spent December in palliative care, caring for my father, spending the final weeks with him. I did not leave his ward. I stayed right beside him. Gave myself sponge baths in his bathroom, slept on a pallet on his floor.

This is, believe it or not, a sweet memory for me. It was a time I cherish. The talks we had, the physical care I gave my dad, that last dance... I would not change a SECOND. He was in very little pain. I only regret that I could not fly to Montreal and get him the ribs and steak he so wanted from a restaurant that burnt down a decade earlier.

I would often look out his hospital window, the ledge made a makeshift window seat. And I'd watch the falling snow reflect light as he slept.

He died in my arms on Christmas Eve. The silly dreamer man who's favorite movie was the Santa Clause, who filled my Christmases with magic. The intelligent man who as an adult put himself through night school so as to provide a better life for his newborn daughter. The clown who'd make me laugh. The hero who could fix anything, or so I thought.

Christmas is special for me in a thousand ways. As a Christian, as a mother to a child who I'm blessed to have, as a wife to a wonderful man and as a daughter to a man who smiled as he took his last breath, the last breath that fanned my face.

I know that Christmas is special, JOY-FILLED, for so many. But others are struggling with loneliness, heartache, emotional, physical and spiritual pain.


This is a blog for you.

Here are some songs that helped me in the week following my father's death.

I played them over and over.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkiP7y0fauk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60bNzi9dA9U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiYYWDSI_oU

May you have a support system around you at this time. Those on the Soup send you prayers and/or you are in their thoughts.

I DO hope you "make it through December."  It will get better. Hang on!

Hugs sent to you during this time, when all the laughter, glitter and music seems to mock and causes pain....

xox
Cyndi
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  1. Date: 12/11/2012 1:06:00 AM
    Rose is right Cyndi, you are an exceptionally beautiful hearted woman, your Dad would be proud of the specialness you impart on others and how graceful you are with the love you share.. p.s sorry for the mistakes im writing through tears.. Merry Christmas angel.. xxxxxxx

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 9:02:00 PM
    This is heartbreaking, Cyndi. You made me cry.

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:28:00 PM
    love you, Love You, LOVE YOU!!!!

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:04:00 PM
    Has anyone told you lately how exceptional you are, if they haven't well there you have it, you rock from here to the stars above, Merry Christmas My Dear Woman, xxx Rose

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 2:36:00 PM
    oh cyndi, this is such a touching blog, now I understand more about why my poem 'moonlight on the ward' affected you...december is bittersweet for me too, it was just before christmas when I had a miscarriage and I know what you mean when you say about the laughter, glitter and music seeming to mock...hugs to you, too xx

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My Past Blog Posts

 
PUBLICATION ETIQUETTE, TWO IMPORTANT THINGS
Date Posted: 10/16/2014 5:28:00 AM
****EDIT******POETRY AS LITERATURE AND AS SELF-EXPRESSION. YOU DON'T NEED TO CHOOSE.
Date Posted: 10/6/2014 11:58:00 AM
ANOTHER WOWSER. TRULY BEAUTIFUL. COME IN FOR A CHAT.
Date Posted: 10/2/2014 9:39:00 PM
A ROMANTIC POEM I THINK MOST WILL LOVE, COMMON GROUND, COME TAKE A PEEK
Date Posted: 9/30/2014 5:37:00 PM
How I judge Contests by Cyndi MacMillan
Date Posted: 9/10/2014 9:58:00 PM
A RESPONSE FROM MAUREEN HYNES
Date Posted: 9/8/2014 8:54:00 PM
MAUREEN SAYS SHE LOVES MY RESPONSE
Date Posted: 9/8/2014 10:25:00 AM
READING POEMS LIKE A POET, INCLUDES AN ANALYSIS
Date Posted: 9/6/2014 6:23:00 PM
PUNK TUATION IN POETRY
Date Posted: 9/4/2014 9:39:00 PM
Grammar and poetry: a Fiction Writer’s Oddball View
Date Posted: 9/2/2014 10:52:00 AM
GREAT ARTICLE ON FIGURATIVE WRITING
Date Posted: 8/22/2014 10:47:00 AM
THIS IS POETIC PROSE
Date Posted: 8/20/2014 9:28:00 AM
GARDEN PARTY CONTEST WINNERS
Date Posted: 7/15/2014 9:57:00 PM
NEW CONTEST
Date Posted: 7/13/2014 5:19:00 AM
LEATHERBACK BOY
Date Posted: 7/11/2014 9:53:00 PM
MINDING MANNERS
Date Posted: 6/11/2014 6:17:00 PM
TORRENT: A CONTEMPORARY SONNET
Date Posted: 6/7/2014 6:56:00 AM
NEW CONTEST
Date Posted: 6/4/2014 10:19:00 PM
GENITALS in PRINT, AN OPEN DIALOGUE
Date Posted: 5/27/2014 3:20:00 PM
THE CLEARING, WORD PAIRINGS, COLLABORATIVE WORK
Date Posted: 5/8/2014 10:21:00 PM
WORD PAIRINGS. BUILDING POEMS.
Date Posted: 5/6/2014 9:04:00 AM
THE BEST POETRY WRITING ADVICE I'VE EVER HEARD
Date Posted: 5/5/2014 9:13:00 AM
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PROSE & POETRY
Date Posted: 5/4/2014 12:50:00 PM
GINGHAM AND LACE, ANOTHER BLITZ
Date Posted: 4/4/2014 9:32:00 PM
NUDE, THIRTY DOLLARS, A BLITZ
Date Posted: 4/4/2014 4:26:00 PM

My Recent Poems

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9/4/2014I COMESFree versesexy,
9/2/2014cummings and iVersepoetry,word play,
8/25/2014LIFE WILL BE A HONEYMOONLyricparadise,passion,romantic
8/25/2014HOSTEL, QUEBEC CITY, 1978Free versehistory,places,
8/21/2014DEGREESSonnetbooks,sensual,words,
8/7/2014NEUTRALIZEDSonnetcolor,home,
7/17/2014CRADLEDTrioletbaby,love,
6/9/2014THE RETURNSonnetdepression,giving,life,lo
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4/21/2014LA MARQUISEFree versepsychological,
4/8/2014BUKOWSKI CONTESTFree versemoving on,power,teenage,
4/4/2014GINGHAM AND LACE, A BLITZ POEMVersedaughter,love,
4/4/2014NUDE, THIRTY DOLLARS, A BLITZVerseart,imagination,lost love
3/24/201450 GODSFree versegod,peace,philosophy,
3/15/2014WINTER IN PORTLANDFree versedepression,winter,
3/11/2014FREEDOM BLUESTail-rhymefreedom,
2/28/2014WELCOME TO THE BLUENOSEAcrosticfish,history,journey,sea,
2/25/2014PITY THE PIRANHAFree verseintrospection,people,
2/13/2014DOUBLE OH, A BOND CROWN, EXAMPLE FOR CONTESTCrown of Sonnetsfilm,sexy,
2/11/2014ORION: A PERSPECTIVE for third to tenthSonnetmythology,star,
2/10/2014TARTANS, A SONNET FOR FRANCINESonnetfriend,patriotic,places,p
2/9/2014TESTIMONIALS, A SONNET FOR BRIANSonnetfaith,friend,nature,
2/5/2014ON THE FRINGE, A SONNET FOR MARLONSonnetafrica,allegory,culture,f
2/3/2014SUMMERLAND, A SONNET FOR CARRIE RICHARDSSonnetfriend,music,places,poetr
2/2/2014WORD ON THE STREET, 2009, A SONNET FOR DAVIDSonnetbooks,friend,places,poetr
1/31/2014HEROES, A SONNET FOR CRAIGSonnetfriend,hero,places,poetry
1/29/2014DIVINE STEEPLES, A SONNET FOR CATIESonnetfriend,love,places,poetry
1/28/2014SNIPPETS, A SONNET FOR ANDREASonnetfilm,friend,poetry,
1/28/2014HEY WAITER, THERE'S A TURTLE IN MY SOUP, sonnet by SYNISTER TRENDENCIESSonnetconflict,metaphor,poets,
1/27/2014GOSSIPHaikuanimal,funny,people,
1/27/2014NEW-DALI, A SONNET FOR CHANSonnetart,friend,poetry,time,
1/26/2014MUSE, A SONNET FOR KATHRYNSonnetfriend,love,places,poetry
1/24/2014ONE TWO ONE, A SONNET FOR DEBBIESonnetfriend,love,places,poetry
1/23/2014FIREWORKS, A SONNET FOR LINDA MARIESonnetfriend,heaven,life,metaph
1/22/2014UNREHEARSED, A SONNET FOR NETTESonnetart,friend,love,
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1/20/2014CHANTRY, A SONNET FOR GAILSonnetlight,memory,places,
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1/6/2014THE STANDProsetruth,
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8/23/2013UNMASKEDPantoumdance,desire,fantasy,
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Fav Poems

Poem TitleFormCategories
The Sowing Free versedevotion,
Ten Little ToesRhymedaughter,lifeold,old,,gra
Woodland RhapsodyQuatraininspirational
Contradicting KeatsSonnetintrospection,life
Surrender to LoveRhymeloveme,
A Totum Pole OdeConcretenative american,people,
MORE DREAMS TO ROWRhyme royalinspirational,life,
When the Tab Comes DueFree verseinspirational,introspecti
Lighting My Candle From WithinQuintain (English)caregiving,introspection,
The Kirk by the SeaCoupletnostalgia,religion,love,
Moonlight On The WardChokahealth,life,
Nocturnal PoetryRhymeimagination,life,poetry,
SlumberEpicdedication,epic,slam,
FROSTY NIGHT STROLLCoupletinspirational,seasons,
Our ThanksgivingLight Poetryholiday,
Tomorrow's GraceEthereepeace,
A New Star Shines Above HawaiiRhymededication,music,
Jesus, Our SaviorShapereligion,life,
Monarch of SummerHaibunanimals,devotion,inspirat
UntouchedRhymeforgiveness,me,me,
Midnight PearlsThan-Baukintrospection,love,
Beaucoup BloomsTerza Rimanature,spring,spring,
On Heaven's DoorwayNarrativeinspirational,life,care,c
WALKING ON FAITHVersefaith,for children,
BeachworldFree verseplaces,sea,sun,
Sleepless NightsNarrativeangst,imagination,mystery
Another FaceRhymelost love,
What Dreams are Made Of - LGTBlank versefear,life,mystery,
Paired ParingsBalladchildhood,
AUTUMN'S SPLENDOROUS BEAUTYQuatrainnature,autumn,autumn,
PneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosisEpicabuse,analogy,corruption,
AnticipationFree verseautumn,death,life,
friend to friendHaikupeople,philosophy,
CalligraphyVerseon writing and words,
CyndiSonnetdedication,
Night ComesRhymetime,
Without Hope's GleamTerzanellehope,flower,flower,joy,pa
When Your Dead YOUR DeadRhymefriendship,love,wife,
after my prayerHaikuinspirational,
Chamber Music ChoppedBlank versemusic,
Money-GodFree versededication,hope,love,reco
Down FallItalian Sonnetbeautiful,miracle,nature,
God ForbidCoupletangst,devotion,write,life
To Kashinath and CyndiRhymededication,devotion,frien
EdinburghFree versededication,
CHERISHEDSonnetlove,peace,
Shield WallsLyricimagination,love,
Live The ClichesFree versedream,hope,love,poetry,
Bliss StateQuatrainfaith,
A Reminder: To BeFree versetruth,writing,
She Came In and Changed EverythingDramatic Verse (Verse Drama)death,deep,epic,evil,sorr
IN THE MOODLight Poetryadventure,woman,
EdinburghFree versededication,hope,life,love
The BywayRhymecare,
To Love MyselfSonnetlove,new year,self,
Westward MovementFree versedevotion,love,peace,
The Rocking ChairRhymechild,christmas,sister,
To the Rescue Rhymesnow,
A Perfect StormRhyme royallife,
Onward Christian SoldiersRhyme 
BEYOND TEARSRhymechild,encouraging,hope,
Dewberry CobblerHaibungrowing up,
The Miracle MotherFree versemiracle,mother,
ReleaseFree verseencouraging,grief,hope,st
A Girls Night OutRhymehumorous,
IN STILLNESSFree versechange,life,

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Ruben O. Argentina Flag Argentina Read
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