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About CYNDI MACMILLAN
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Bloggers Photo Writing a biography irks me. How much to reveal? What tidbits to conceal?  

        The Basics: I’m a 45 year-old, stay-at-home mom of an adorable two year old girl. I’m happily married to a wonderful man who is my living contradiction, the quiet to my loud, the calm to my frantic. Life continually amuses, bemuses and confuses me.

        My first poem, which I wrote at five, was entitled, “Lov is Magik” and my father kept the fading, folded paper I scribbled it upon in his wallet for decades. I have tinkered in poetry ever since, but my main passion is fiction. My short stories have been published in the local papers. Occasionally, I dabble with creative non-fiction. I have a several chapters of a book completed which I’m hoping to submit to Avalon Books.

   Despite years of living in Ontario, I will always consider myself foremost a Montrealer. Now living in Waterloo County, home of Research in Motion, maker of the Blackberry, I am content in our downsized apartment which is close to uptown, but overlooks Laurel Creek.  Though considered Canada’s Silicon Valley, the city is surrounded by a picturesque countryside filled with Mennonites. It is not uncommon to see a Mercedes Benz carefully pass a horse drawn wagon. Even our local hardware stores provide parking for buggies. We have many wonderful festivals, two universities, and culture galore.

         I spent years as an E.C.E. teacher and adore children. Now, that I have one of my own –after 16 heartbreaking years of infertility – my days are filled with finger paints and drinking imaginary tea from tiny pink tea cups. Sleep is a distant memory and writing is my night time balm. My hubby works evening shifts. After my girl is asleep, my imagination runs wild and I write.

I am a Jill of all trades. I've worked as a personal care attendant in a home for young people with physical and developmental challenges. Had a short go as a dishwasher in my younger days, oh joy.  I've also been an engraver, a store manager, a cashier at the Sally Anne, but my last job was as at an office where I worked on databases (I WISH I was a geek.)

As a newer member of Poetry Soup, I am often dazzled by its diversity,the quiet, shy voices, the bellows in the foreground, the cackles in the corners. There is so much talent here! I love the contests run by its members as I enjoy a challenge.

    Nice to meet you!  Looking forward to growing together, as writers and friends.

 

Hugs, Cyndi


 

Most Recent Blog Post


A BLOG FOR THOSE HAVING A BLUE CHRISTMAS, SONGS FOR YOU
Blog Posted:12/10/2012 9:25:00 AM

 


Eight years ago, I spent December in palliative care, caring for my father, spending the final weeks with him. I did not leave his ward. I stayed right beside him. Gave myself sponge baths in his bathroom, slept on a pallet on his floor.

This is, believe it or not, a sweet memory for me. It was a time I cherish. The talks we had, the physical care I gave my dad, that last dance... I would not change a SECOND. He was in very little pain. I only regret that I could not fly to Montreal and get him the ribs and steak he so wanted from a restaurant that burnt down a decade earlier.

I would often look out his hospital window, the ledge made a makeshift window seat. And I'd watch the falling snow reflect light as he slept.

He died in my arms on Christmas Eve. The silly dreamer man who's favorite movie was the Santa Clause, who filled my Christmases with magic. The intelligent man who as an adult put himself through night school so as to provide a better life for his newborn daughter. The clown who'd make me laugh. The hero who could fix anything, or so I thought.

Christmas is special for me in a thousand ways. As a Christian, as a mother to a child who I'm blessed to have, as a wife to a wonderful man and as a daughter to a man who smiled as he took his last breath, the last breath that fanned my face.

I know that Christmas is special, JOY-FILLED, for so many. But others are struggling with loneliness, heartache, emotional, physical and spiritual pain.


This is a blog for you.

Here are some songs that helped me in the week following my father's death.

I played them over and over.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkiP7y0fauk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60bNzi9dA9U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiYYWDSI_oU

May you have a support system around you at this time. Those on the Soup send you prayers and/or you are in their thoughts.

I DO hope you "make it through December."  It will get better. Hang on!

Hugs sent to you during this time, when all the laughter, glitter and music seems to mock and causes pain....

xox
Cyndi
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  1. Date: 12/11/2012 1:06:00 AM
    Rose is right Cyndi, you are an exceptionally beautiful hearted woman, your Dad would be proud of the specialness you impart on others and how graceful you are with the love you share.. p.s sorry for the mistakes im writing through tears.. Merry Christmas angel.. xxxxxxx

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 9:02:00 PM
    This is heartbreaking, Cyndi. You made me cry.

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:28:00 PM
    love you, Love You, LOVE YOU!!!!

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:04:00 PM
    Has anyone told you lately how exceptional you are, if they haven't well there you have it, you rock from here to the stars above, Merry Christmas My Dear Woman, xxx Rose

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 2:36:00 PM
    oh cyndi, this is such a touching blog, now I understand more about why my poem 'moonlight on the ward' affected you...december is bittersweet for me too, it was just before christmas when I had a miscarriage and I know what you mean when you say about the laughter, glitter and music seeming to mock...hugs to you, too xx

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My Past Blog Posts

 
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My Poems

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5/10/2013Contemporary haikuHaikuchildren,family,mother,sw
5/7/2013LOVE CLAMORS, A DIRGE FOR CIVILITYVillanellecare,people,rights,
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5/3/2013a cluster of menHaikusummer,
5/3/2013haiku - For MomsHaikulife,may,mother,
5/3/2013haiku 7 - verblessHaikuseasons,
5/2/2013FLOWER FAERIESQuintain (English)fairy,flower,
4/28/2013WOMEN, FOR DEBBIE GUZZIFree verse (vers libre)friendship,gender,
4/26/2013SYLVIA, FOR CRAIG CORNISH, FOR ALL PLATH FANSCrown of Sonnetslife,poets,writing,
4/20/2013THE POET'S CREEDFree verse (vers libre)poetry,world,writing,
4/18/2013TYPEWRITERFree verse (vers libre)lust,writing,
4/17/2013IT---FOR A TEACHER AND FRIEND ON HER RETURNFree verse (vers libre)poetry,writing,
4/11/2013GET ME TO THE PUBLyricfunny,life,places,song,me
4/10/2013TWELVE DOLLARS, UNLESS PRICED DIFFERENTLY, dedicated to Francine RobertsFree verse (vers libre)nostalgia,women,
4/9/2013haiku 2013Haikuflower,food,
4/8/2013THE ADJECTIVE IMPERATIVECoupleton writing and words,word
4/1/2013MY JANESonnetromantic,
3/31/2013haiku for CharlesHaikunature,people,time,
3/28/2013THE THORNY CROWNRondeaueaster,faith,
3/26/2013THE FIRST OF APRILHaibunholiday,hope,pain,
3/24/2013CRUCIBLEVillanellehate,suicide,teen,heart,h
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