Pondering mind

Written by: Suhana Begum

Always wondering
at that corner of my mind
what am I ?
and where am I ?
and what awaits me ?
and where do i stand ?
and do i ever exist
In those people i have seen?

they talk, they laugh
they tease, they praise
they also scream and curse
like stones, one by one words fell
never failing to tear
that tender heart of mine

as the time groans
and memory sharpening
with past whispering
from every brick of mine
I walk aimlessly
dragging along that load of burden
sighing under my feet
eyes always in blankness
staring at silent walls of mine

those tears that were shed
those pains that were screamed
those words that were heard
those visions that were seen

those questions left unanswered
those reasons never justified
those anger never ceased
those hopes that still remains

All lingers around in me
as i move along
day by day
in that closed corner
surrounded in gloom
like a hidden saga
it lies underneath
never failing to show up
like that turmoils at sea
and leaving those mysteries
always unsolved...

now as i watch the vast sea
my arms holding last hopes tightly
fearing that breeze will take away from me
as those tides rising up and down
waiting for those waves to bring back
those lost happiness of mine
and to bring a smile
in those eyes of mine...